Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Monday, January 26, 2015
Some motivational recovery advice
Though something i want to mention is that each time i step outside of my comfort zone, each time i do something new or something new happens its then that i am even more thankful of how my life is now. I think back to how restricted i was in life before, in all aspects. Health, energy, happiness, love, motivation.... i had barely any of those things. But now i can say i have about 150% of all of them :)
Things CAN change, you can do a 180 degree change i KNOW you can. I have contact with lots of people who have changed their life whether its from anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, orthorexia or EDNOS. They have fully changed their life and they write and tell me how happy they are. How they can feel the change in their mind, how they love their body how they are happy. They arent controlled by something in their head. I know it can seem impossible right now... like its too tough to fight the anxiety. Too tough to keep going, too tough to eat. But you know what, its YOU who decides how tough it is. You CAN be stronger, dont tell yourself that you cant recover or that you are too weak because then that is what you will become. But if you focus ALL your attention on recovery, if you focus on doing things right no matter if it feels like the anxiety is crawling through your whole body or the panic is rising heavy inside you. You still need to focus on doing what is right and you often know what it is right even if your eating disorder tries to convince you its not. But the most important thing is to tell yourself and to KNOW that you can recover. If you keep saying i will never recover, im too sick, im not sick enough, im a hopeless case, im an exception....... well then you will be stuck in the hell you are in now.
Recovery isnt easy for anyone hence why there are so many people who suffer who die from the illness or who are stuck being sick, but there is also a large percent of people who recover from the illness. Wouldnt you like to be part of that percent? To know that you have overcome an illness which many people die from? Because in the end.... is your goal death? Because that will be the outcome of this illness..... death/organ failure or living in the greyzone/the hell of half recovery for the rest of your life? Or you can keep fighting until you are free and are healthy!!
No one else can force you to recover the choice has to be YOURS. You have to choose it everyday until you n longer have to chosen between life and death because you are already healthy and have overcome death.
Believe in recovery and believe that you CAN. Thats the first step the second step is choosing recovery everyday, every moment no matter how tough it is.