Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Saturday, January 17, 2015

Saturday date

Feeling better and finally able to leave the house and do something productive with my day!!! Today started off with the delicious breakfast below, followed by a calm workout which felt soooo good. Those who workout during the weekends are always different to those who workout during the week, so there were loads of newbies who just sort of wandered around and left weights EVERYWHERE. I almost felt a little panic and irritation rising in me because everything was everywhere. I almost turned into an annoying parent who starts cleaning everything behind a person!

Then i came home and ate a little something before i got ready to leave again. I was having one of those 'im so ugly. I feel fat. Hate the way i look' feelings before i left and i just felt like abslaoute 'Bllaahhh'. Not even straightening my hair could help with making me feel better about my appearance, but you know what.... those feelings go away. They definitely wont stop me from leaving the house anyway!!

So i met up with the guy and we began wandering around the city walking for most probably 30 minutes before we found a nice cafe and sat down and ate lunch. We then tried to come up with ideas of what to do and i suggested Pool as i used to love playing that when i was younger. I was never so good, but i knew i could play it anyway.
  So with my awful navigation skills we eventually found the right place and we spent 2 hours playing where i won 2 out of the many matches!! But it was a very fun thing to do. After a while i began feeling tired and as i didnt want to completely ware myself out, and i felt how my legs were starting to fail me. So we decided to call it a day, but already planning when we're meeting again :)
   It was fun!! When you first meet someone new its hard to know how you feel about them as you havent gotten a chance to really get to know them or spend time with them.... but the more time i spend with him, the more fun it is.... and like a reader said, it might just because my 'comfort zone'. It really didnt feel as 'annoying' as i thought (hahaha.... yes, i felt quite lazy and just wanted to be at home and do my usual nothing. But this was so much more fun :))

Now anyway i am starving!!! I have just eaten dinner, but my body is calling for more food. When im out in town and doing other things you dont feel as hungry and i dont get the opportunity to eat my big snacks, so now im going to eat extra this evening :):)


  1. No we wont judge....I do it all the time :) but is he comfortable to be displayed on a blog he probably doesn't even know exists...(if that's him in the picture) So happy you had a fun time and do something fun and different from your usual routines...

    1. haha, well you couldnt really seeh im unless you zoomed in or made it big screen.... which i really hope people dont do, because that would just be creepy. But ive deleted the photo now anyway, hahah. Just incase!!

  2. Your date is handsome :) It is so nice to hear that you are having fun and doing stuff out of your comfort zone :)

  3. You look so beautiful! :) I'm so happy for you ! :) When i've read the title " saturday date" i clapped and said : " yay" like a child! xD I'm glad you are doing so much better! :)

  4. Sounds like a fun day! Glad you are having fun!! :)

  5. You always look beautiful, even in sweaty workout clothes!

    If you could write a post about foods that are easy on digestion, that would be so great. I am in recovery and trying to eat more, but I often get a lot of stomach pain and bloating if I eat anything other than oatmeal, yoghurt and fruit - I don't know if it is from purging or overexercising or undereating, but my stomach doesn't digest food very well anymore - so I just end up eating a lot of that as it is easy to digest. Which doesn't help with NOT restricting haha.