Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Tuesday, January 27, 2015

New day with new chances!!!

Good morning everyone :)
   Today i am feeling puffy eyed and not so energetic XD Not such a good luck. But that powernap yesterday..... not such a good idea because i then lay awake for the next few hours unable to sleep. But anyway, thats not the topic or interest in my blog... i mean, im pretty sure none of you are concerned or care about my sleeping pattern :) hahahha.

Anyway, its a new day today which means school and work. But also a workout this morning followed by.....a radio interview. Or im not sure if its the actual radio interview today or just talking about what the interview will be about etc.... im not so sure. But i am Nervous!!! Its an irish radio station.... so i will let you know when i know more :)
   Im taking my opportunities to reach out to more people now, though of course that means thinking about the pros and cons of it all..... do i have the time to blog? Do i have the time to email? Do i even have the content and creativity to write posts? But im not going to worry so much about that right now.... i feel that worrying about the future isnt a good thing. I have done too much of that in my life time and in the end things NEVER turn out the way you thought they would. There are so many different factors shaping our lives everyday and we have control of about 2% of those. All i can do is make the RIGHT choices for me NOW. Then its just to see where those choices lead me and make new choices when the time comes.

Thats my advice for the day anyway :) Thinking about the choices and the consequences (either positive or negative) can be good to do, but in the end worrying too much about the future and what will or wont happen or how things will turn out.... its so hard to know and you spend unnecessary time with anxiety and stress and worry when instead you could be thinking and doing other things :)

Nervousness however isnt something so easily gotten rid of, but with a workout i will take my mind off of it and feel more relaxed and focused!!

Have a lovely day everyone :) Keep focusing on your goals and know that you can get through whatever is bringing you down!!!


  1. Breathe deep and keep a strong voice. Youll do great!!

    1. Thank you :) The interview didnt go that great... hahah, but sure. It was my first one :)

  2. Izzy,

    Actually my weight is so low that I am anxious if I loose more. I am on a recovery diet as i decided it can no longer stay this way, so I am increasing my food amount (with great strugle and very bad thoughts, especialy binging/purging thoughts)

    Therefore I have to control very closely my weight (I live by my own, nobody can weight me), what would you recommend me to do ? Weight myself 2x per week (my BMI is -/+ 11 for the moment, and even though I eat there is no improvement)

    How about increasing food amount how shall I do ? Increase slowly or just give a great huge push?
    (I do not have access to caloric nutritious drinks but i try on peanut butter/oïl/butter and introducted starches - oats/bulgur/rice/potatoes/pasta even if it freaks me out...things are quite difficult to do on your own when nobody can do it for you or look at what you eat)

    Thanks for your kind advices !!!!!!

    1. I think its great that you are trying to eat more :) I would recommend adding in more oil/butter/higher fat dairy products/nut butters/nuts/dried fruit etc and things like avocados, oats, bananas and smoothies are a great way to add more. I dont know how much you are eating now, but i would increase with about 500kcal every 1-2 weeks so that your body has time to adjust. Focus on your goal and eating more. Losing weight WONT help you. It wont make things better and you will end up with serious consequences if you keep losing weight. YOU need to take action and make a change. So try to follow a meal plan, keep eating and adding calorie dense fod can help :):)

    2. Biologically and medically speaking at BMI 11 your body is shutting down. There is absolutely no wonder you struggle and feel anxious. You feel restless because your body and mind is in a starvation mode and food seeking mode. Evolution made us that way.
      I strongly urge you to seek help if possible. If you cannot so increase your intake gradually everyday more than yesterday. And weigh yourself maybe a bit less.
      Keep going strong! You can get through this, don´t be afraid of a weight number. It does not define you!

    3. Oh yes... weighing yourself twice a week isnt really needed, once a week would be much better and of course. DO seek help.