Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Friday, January 2, 2015

Metabolism and calories in recovery

I am no expert on this topic so if i get anything wrong then PLEASE do correct me (if you know the right information, that is to say). But i will try to write and explain in simple terms anyway :)

So... as you might know, the body is always trying to keep you alive. It wants to keep you functioning and working properly, so when you eat less for a longer period of time your metabolism will slow down as a way of 'protecting' you. Because if you arent eating enough then of course your body neeeds to take energy from fat or muscles and in the end organs to keep your heart going. But instead of attacking fat, muscles or organs it will slow down the metabolism so that you wont use as much energy living your life....  This is what happens to dieters and why they need to keep decreasing their calories to lose weight, because they put their body into starvation mode because they eat too little. But it also means that you gain weight quicker and more easier because your body WANTS more energy, so if you eat more then you're body will hold onto for stored energy as it knows that it isnt getting enough energy on a regular basis. However for normal people the energy is often used, unless its  a very high excess calories for a longer period of time, then it is of course stored on the body.

So in recovery, you may gain weight quicker to begin with... though in actuality, its not 'actual' weight, its more just water and your body is in shock to begin with for the first 1-2 weeks and after that the body is used to getting regular food and so is not as shocked. But is still very bloated as the metabolism needs to fix itsself.

If you are recovering and you need to gain weight and you are too scared to increase your calories so you eat c.a 1500-1800kcal a day and you keep eating that until you are your normal weight.... but what happens then, if your body hasnt adjusted to the calorie intake because your metabolism is still messed up. Then suddenly you will be your normal healthy weight but still be gaining weight eating a very little amount. Because really, a person should maintain their weight eating c.a 1800-2500 .
  During weight gain... this is your opportuinity to eat more and hopefully increase your metabolism, but it also HELPS your body and mind to repair itsself and recover. Think of the damage your body has been through, 1500kcal a day really isnt enough. Thats not going to help repair your body.

It is recommended to eat c.a 2800-3500+ kcal A DAY during recovery so that your body can recover as well as your metabolism. This of course is a gradual increase... you might begin with 1000kcal a day and then keep increasing every 1-2 weeks.
  This will lead to your metabolism adapting to the calorie intake so that eventually you will be able to eat c.a 2500-3000kcal a day and not gain weight.
  Though its also important to remember that genes and DNA also play a role.
And also, if you exercise then you need to eat your calories to gain weight ASWELL as the burnt off calories. Example... say you need 3500kcal a  day to gain weight and then you go for an hours run then you will need to eat c.a 4000 kcal a day (on the day you run)..... can you do that?
  But also remember, exercise stresses your body and makes it harder for the body to recover and repair itself.

Eating more always seems to be a bad thing and a scary thing... but think like this... eat more in recovery (in a balanced way - binging all the time is not healthy either) leads to a faster metabolism, leads to being able to eat more without weight gain. Isnt that a good thing? So EAT MORE. Help your body recover, help your body repair itself and you will thank yourself later when you are a healthy weight and arent stuck with metabolic damage or lots of digestive issues. (I know a girl who never ate solid food in recovery as she was too scared to do it, but it messed up her digestive ssytem alot and she could barely eat solid food without causing extreme stomach pain and she was almost a normal weight and the only thing she could consume was supplement drinks. So this isnt a good idea either.)

For more posts and advice:

About metabolism
Maintaining weight at a low calorie intake
Calorie intake in recovery
Metabolism after an eating disorder
Increasing my calories
Why you shouldnt exercise while in recovery


  1. i am maintaining on a small amount of calories,how can i boost my metabolysm? :)

    1. You need to do reverse dieting and gradually increase your intake and calories. It can lead to a small amount of weight gain, but it will help boost your metabolism and increase your intake.

  2. i dont know what you mean by you will stop gaining eventually on 2500-3000 calories. i exercise everyday and eat about 2400 calories. i am maintaining my weight but i exercise EVERY day. does this mean my metabolism is suppressed even considering I am at a normal weight now?