It sucks because the weekend i choose to rest just because, i wasnt feeling sick and had no symptoms. It was just to let my body rest and focus on other things in my life and then Monday i was feeling 100% healthy and excited and filled with energy, but by Monday evening my throat was burning and raw and i was beginning to lose my voice. Last night was an awful night with little to no sleep because of my sore throat and today i have had pretty much no voice... some raspy whispers i have managed when a teacher has asked me a question and i have had to try to whisper that i have no voice. Why i went to school? Because i felt i couldnt miss the lessons because they are all so important at the moment. And the funny thing is, its only my throat... i dont have a runny nose, i dont have a fever, i physically have lots of energy, apart from having no apetite... its mostly the fact that i cant breathe and it feels like i am coughing up my lungs every 10 minutes and lets not mention the fact that i can barely swallow because my throat is so swollen and sore.
Wow, that was alot of negativity! haha. During a school break i had to go to the shop to buy some strepsils, an energy drink to give me energy and a bar to eat as my apetite was (and is at 0).
I dont know how it is in your country but here in Sweden you have to be 18 or older to buy things like strepsils, cough medicine and painkillers? I think its super strange, especially with things like throat losengers.... i mean, really. When i was 16 there were times i really needed a painkiller or some type of throat soother and couldnt buy it on my own? Its to limit the amount of overdoses and such on those types of medicines, but still.... haha
This evening im continuing with my tea drinking, going to watch a film and try to get some food into me. Though the worst thing is that my head tells me i should eat, that i need to eat and that its Xpm and i havent eaten dinner but my stomach just says no.... its such a horrible feeling, because when my body says no but my head says yes, i still cant make myself eat because my body doesnt have the apetite for it. Of course 1 or 2 days of eating less isnt going to make me lose weight or anything, but at the same time i am aware of how easily i can lose weight and i dont like it :( Thats what i hate about being sick, my body just takes energy from itsself and im left feeling weak and super skinny again, even if it doesnt go that quickly. hahah (just some thoughts!)
Tomorrow i need to go to school for my morning lessons, but after that im coming home and unless i feel better i will most probably spend Thursday and Friday at home as well... and most probably a whole week of rest as well, just to make sure that i recover properly :)
Ohhh and i had to cancel my dinner date plans :( I felt really bad, but the fact that i cant speak and my eyes are watering every 15 minutes from coughing i figured i might not be the best dinner company, hahah XD But we have rescheduled and thats what counts anyway!! :)