Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, January 14, 2015

If you dont know what to do, choose life

In recovery you can go through feelings of not knowing what to do. Its easier, safer and more "comfortable" to stay sick. You just follow routines and habits and dont do things that scare you. But then there is also the side of you who knows that you dont want to be sick anymore. You dont want to have the constant battle and struggle in your head. A part of you wants to be healthy, skip the whole recovery part and just wake up healthy, happy and recovered. But you dont know which to choose.... this is basicaly half recovery, but it can be at any time. You might not even have begun recovery and you feel this way, or maybe you are almost at your goal weight but your head hasnt really recovered and so you feel this way, still dont know what to choose.

You know what i say? If you dont know what to do, then always choose life. No matter what the situation. Choose life.
   Some would say that if you dont make a choice, then you are still making a choice.... for example, if you dont choose recovery you are choosing your illness, and in some sense its like that. But an eating disorder, or any mental illness isnt necessarily a choice. But recovery is. Recovery is a choice you keep making over and over, you keep choosing life and healthy. If you dont, then you are choosing the consequences....

Choosing life and health is the choice you should always make.

I feel i cant really formulate the words i want to write, the thoughts and what i want to get across really arent showing through words - would have been better to make a video, haha. But i want YOU all to choose life, recovery and health everyday. That no matter if its tough, you still need to make that choice.
  And when you are struggling, dont know what to do. Then its even more important that you make the choice of wanting to be healthy and keep fighting. Recovery is tough, but it wont get easier because you give up.

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