Dear Izzy, I am a 24 year old girl from Austria, and I have been struggling with Anorexia nervosa since I was 13. I have also spend many months in treatment, but now I am nearly recovered. I have studied Medicine and I am now a Medical Doctor and started working at a hospital recently. I also have a lovely boyfriend, and we are together for several years already. First of all I would like to say that your blog is great and that this blog has inspired me a lot, and still inspires me. I read through your posts very often, especially when I have a "bad day". I agree with many of your advice posts, and I can also understand how much you love exercising, since exercising is also very important for me. I totally agree with you that by exercising you can actually learn to love your body for what it can do rather than for how it looks. However, I want to tell you something which I do not quite like about your blog. I have thought about writing to you for a long time, and I would love to get a reply from you (if you have time). When I read through your blog, I always get the impression that food is a very, very, very important issue for you. Much more important than it should be! I know that you eat what you like and you might not have a disordered eating pattern any more. And I know this is hard to achieve, and I really congratulate you that you have come this far! BUT: Eating is NECESSARY, but it is NOT THAT IMPORTANT. Good food can make your life better, it can be savoured, and especially after an eating disorder it is crucial that you LEARN to enjoy food again. However, I guess you make food a very big issue, and it truly shouldn't be that way. For example, in nearly all of your personal posts you write what you have eaten for a certain meal. There is nearly no personal post of yours where you simply describe your day, your life and what you have done WITHOUT mentioning what you have eaten or how much, or THAT you have eaten, at least once. Or when I read your 2014 year lookback, it actually annoyed me that you wrote (don't remember the exact wording, but roughly like this): From January to March I fell in love with this or that food combination, I tried this food and I baked this or that. In April I discovered this or that food combination and I went to lunch to XX bla bla bla. Really Izzy, I don't mean to be rude. But reading all this, people might get the impression that you should recover from an eating disorder primarily because food is soooooooo delicious and important and because you need to enjoy all the delicious food again. This is part of recovery, and it can be hard, I agree with that. BUT primarily you recover because you would probably be depressed and unhappy if you remained in your eating disorder and because you could die from it and damage your body! You recover because you want to enjoy life again. You recover to meet people, go out, get your life back on track, enjoy walks, exercise, enjoy school or university again, enjoy your work again, maybe have a relationship etc. etc. You don't recover to eat yummy food. This is just one out of many many many things and reasons why you recover. You don't just sit in school for 2 hours because then you can finally enjoy your delicious snack or whatever. You should eat to live, not live to eat (as you wrote yourself). You should eat when you are hungry or when you need energy, but you should not focus on yummy yummy delicious food ALL THE TIME. I may be mistaken, but maybe, even if YOU are fully recovered, you still think way too much about food, even if you really seem to enjoy it. In your personal posts, maybe you could just write more about what you actually DO the whole day, and what you enjoy APART from food. This is just my opinion. I would be glad if you replied. And really, I don't mean to be rude. I generally like your blog and I read it almost everyday :)
Hello, first off i am glad to hear you like my blog and also super happy to hear that you are healthy and almost recovered and able to live your life :)
And what you say is absaloutly right, so i am not offended at all. Infact i think it is good that you point it out. Would i say i am obsessed with food? No... would i say that i pay alot of attention to food? Yes. On my blog anyway. Yes, i can write about a snack i ate, yes i take photos of some of my meals and yes i can mention delicious food combinations or new things i have tried. But that is because i love food, it may seem fake. I am aware of that.. i mean, can someone really like food that much and not be lying or have some food issues?
In daily life i.e when i am with friends, family, living my life and not blogging. Food is not so much a thought of mine, i eat when i am hungry or just sometimes when im bored. I eat what i crave and no thought about it. Why i write about my blog is because well its a habit of mine. People like reading or seeing my food posts, whether its for good or bad reasons i dont know. But i can definitely cut down on the food posts if that is what is wanted :) Though i will still post pictures of my food now and again.
Though sometimes i guess i can feel.... i dont know how to fill the blank space otherwise? My days arent that exciting. I go to school, i study, i workout (but i dont write about working out... so there goes another part of my life i dont talk about) and then there are personal things such as maybe family problems or economic problems or personal or friend problems which weigh me down and i choose to not talk about them (there goes 25% of my day again)... and so what am i left with? Myself, my boring day where i quite honestly dont do much.
^¨That sums me up.
There are only so many advice posts or help posts i can write, and yes i do want to post several posts a day, thats what i like doing. I dont like when it goes 8-12 hours inbetween posts, thats not how i like blogging. So i like putting up a picture of my lunch or snack, but also because i want to inspire others. I want others to see that food is delicious, should you live to eat? Maybe not. Food is a part of life, just like anything. Focusing 100% on school or work, or exercise or food isnt a good idea. Its a balance.
But also remember that what i write, what i choose to publish is only certain things of my life. Not every thought of mine is published, not every thing i do. I dont publish when i go for a 20 minute walk with Daisy, or each time i have an interesting conversation with a guy or each time i go for a run or each time i grab a bag of chips at home and begin eating it infront of a movie. Not everything is essential to write down.
So at times it can feel - i am sure to a reader anyway - like all my focus is on food or working out, i get that. Its hard to know anything else when all you see and read are these small snippets of my life.
Though i am quite honest so i think the best thing is that: YOU ASK QUESTIONS. What do you want to know about? Do you want to know more about me? Do you want me to do some certain weekly post like once a week i talk about relationships or once a week make a video or make a thought post etc
I know i dont reply to all comments, i try to. But i dont always see them all, some dont show up in my comments box, so its not until a month later that i go onto a post and see i missed 3 questions or comments. So its just to recomment or to send an email then.
But dont be afraid to give me feedback on what to write about or how i can improve :) I know at times i can seem like i get super offended and at certain things i do get more offended, but i am a nice person :) And if you're super rude, ill most probably be slightly rude back. But if you send an email or comment like the person above i would like to think i am rational and give you a valid reason back :)
So to any of you who think i focus too much on food, that is not the case. Its just what i have choosen to write about to fill the blank space, but also to inspire you :) But i will of course cut down on writing about food now and just a few photos might come up now and again :)