Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Saturday, December 6, 2014
At the moment i feel i have 101 things to do and motivation to do 0 of them. Somedays the weekends just dont feel like enough time to get everything done.
Christmas shopping & gifts to think out and buy. 3 tests to study for and a presentation to make. Research, essay writing and analyzis to do. Emails to reply to. People to talk and email to. Things to be paid for and things to be bought.....
Basically life. haha. But it just feels like all too much at the moment. And i had this moment where it all felt so overwhelming, especially my tests. I feel like i dont have enough time to get it all into my head, though i know its just stress and tiredness (though im not tired? so maybe its not this) that is making me feel this way.
Though instead of making myself feel bad and get anxiety because i wasnt doing work, instead i decided i would just take this day off. I knew i wouldnt get any work done... so there was no point sitting there trying to get it done. And instead tomorrow i will try to sit all day and get as much done as possible.
And then next week i will have to try to go Christmas shopping, spend extra time before/after school and study etc Prioritizing is key at the moment but also not getting to overwhelmed or stressed. as that wont help anything.
I am going to continue my evening like i have done all day - in bed!!! I dont even know what ive done all day... wandered around the house. Moved from my bed to the dining room table, and then staring at the people outside then back to my bed then to the kitchen for food repeat!! not a bad day :)
Tomorrow it will be productivity 101 though :)