Despite the bloating and looking like i was pregnant i put on my comfy clothes which - sounding very weird - is a skirt and tight top? (How that works with bloating and feeling comfortable, its strange) But throw on a loose top ontop and its perfect! So i went to school looking and feeling good.
I sat an hour before school and did maths and felt that i was beginning to understand... or like i said yesterday, i understand but im doing something wrong and didnt know what it was i was doing wrong. But i figured it out i think!
Then when i was going to my first lesson my mobile fell out of my pocket and landed right on the screen. Luckily it didnt shatter the screen... however the actual screen isnt working - just a mix of lights. :/ And queue stress mode -_- From that point on it all went downhill. I spent my first lesson just trying to find the cheapest place to fix my phone but it was super expensive and i realised it was cheaper to just buy a new phone.. and pay every month -_- Usch, added bills each month. So thats what im planning to do as soon as i can, though whether i get the chance to buy a new one this week or next week i dont know :(
But i can say... life without a mobile is hard. I am a Self confessed mobile addict. Im not even ashamed of it. Of course, i put my mobile down and away when im with family and friends, but the truth is, i do rely on my phone alot as i have alot of online social media things going on in my life.
So now.... everything will just be harder. No music, no quick googling, no blogging, no replying to emails on the go etc etc This will be good training for me. Though i must admit, it feels like just a few weeks ago when i had no phone because my one broke (that wasnt my fault, it was a faulty camera!)
Anyway, from that moment on it all sort of went down hill... i dropped everything i held, almost. My calculater, water bottles, keys, books, pencils etc etc i was just one big mess almost. haha. Not sure if its stress or just so many thoughts racing in my head that i cant seem to concentrate or think properly.
Then i had my maths test and it just went wrong... and i dont want to see the results of it :( Though im reminding myself that one test wont completely ruin my grade. I dont think i failed, but i doubt i got more than a pass. Yup... im very hard on myself and a bit of a perfectionist in school, so once again... learning to not be so stressed or so much of a perfectionist is something i need to work on.
Then... to continue my negativity on my way to the tube i had 2 older men follow me and start walking a bit too close to just be walking, so that got very uncomfortable. And then i had another man stand and stare directly at me on the train and when i got up to move he moved as well....
I came home exhausted, tired and just not wanting to do anything. The stress of everything making my hunger disappear. But instead i made myself an egg cake with quark, nuts and raspberries &cinnamon. & 1/2 a celsius as i have work to do and then some chocolate which i bought yesterday but didnt want... so its perfect now!! :)
I had to use my camera which has pretty much fallen apart - so the pictures arent so great... but i feel i HAVE TO have pictures in most of my posts, hahah!! And i prefer to use daily - new pictures!
So excuse the bad quality - i dont have time to try to lighten them up either. Back to basics ;)
Sorry for the negativity... next post i will try be more positive!!