Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Motivation and inspiration to keep going - Answer
I suppose my biggest fears at the moment is.. what if i never really recover, despite all the weight I am made to gain, and everything I have to go through in the next few months, years. Will the thoughts be there forever? And I am so worried about the damage I have done to my body, I keep on thinking..they will make me gain weightbut because I have damaged myself so much, the life I live after recovery wil be just awful because I wont be able to walk properly and I wil still be filled with loathing for my body.
Those thoughts are understandable, but you have to know that that is not true. The only way to learn to love yourself and your body is to work on those thoughts and positive thoughts. For many yes they do just gain weight and then the doctors say they are healthy because they are a healthy weight but mentally they arent healthy and they are still scared of food and hate their body. And thats not a good thing, because then you often relapse. But while you are gaining weight you have to face your fears as well... you have to face your fear foods. Learn to rest and relax. Find a better coping mechansim with guilt, panic and anxiety. Talk/write about how you are feeling, what you are thinking. And know that the way things are now, they wont be like this forever. However its YOU that has to make a change. Because if you dont start facing your fears or doing things that scare you, then you will stay with the same habits and routines. No one else can mentally recover for you. People can help you to gain weight, but everything else has to come from you. And you have to find the motivation to recover for yourself. Maybe set up some goals... what is it you want to do with your life ? Do you want to work? Continue going to school? Travel? Have a partner? Have kids? Have animals etc find a motivatin and reason to not give up.
You want to be able to live healthy and exercise again? Well then you need to trest your body right. You need to rest and eat properly so that your body has energy and fuel to exercise. You need to look in the mirror and find your positives and the things you like about yourself so that you can be happy in your own body. So that you exercise because you enjoy it and not just to try to change your body.
Set up a motivtion board/collage or soem goals to work towards. Write down your fear foods and your fears and focus on over coming them.... facing them several times until they are no longer a fear food.
Loving yourself and creatinga life you want and enjoy has to come from you. You cant wait for someone else to do it for you. If you eat enough and rest and let your body and metabolism recover and repair itsself then you shouldnt have any long lasting problems. Though if you eat too little and your metabolism doesnt recover then it can cause problems. But also things like osteoporosis, anemia, amenorrhea etc So eat properly and make sure to let your body recover and rest and also work on your thoughts and mental health.