Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, December 29, 2014

Low self esteem and feeling like you arent good at anything

This is a response to a question in an email (if some things seem unclear or weird!)

Feelings of helplessness and not feeling good at anything, they can be a trigger to an eating disorder. You feel like you arent good enough, and its those thoughts you have to work with. For me, i know i had control issues and low self esteem so during recovery i had to work with those. I had to let go of my control and having to control everything as well as learning that actually i was good at things. That i wasnt awful, ugly and useless. Because that isnt the truth. And its not the truth for you either.
   And you know what, you dont have to go to college if you dont want to. Its not many people who say this, but you can make it in life anyway. Maybe you just need a break from studying, you need to find your reason to live. Maybe you need to travel, do things with friends, start a new hobby, read some books, watch films and documentaries, find something you love to do.
  For me, it was during my recovery and when i became healthy that i realised i wanted to help people and to help people with fitness and nutrition. I loved exercising before i became sick but it was not something i wanted to work with. I was very lost and had no idea what i wanted to do, i thought maybe something with maths or science or writing... but now thats not what i want to do, though both maths and science and writing (3 things which i am good at and enjoy) will also be used in what i want to work with. So really its a win-win thing!!
   Along the way, whether it takes a few months or a few years, you will find what youwant to do. But you cant give up just because it seems hard or hopeless now. You just need to find what it is you want to do and what you love doing.
    And know that you ARE good at things. You are good at baking, you are good at writing and i am sure you are good at plenty of different things. You cant be good at everything, i mean i am good at strengtt training and running, but ask me to play foot ball and i will end up falling over the ball and passing to the opposite team. Im good at baking, but that doesnt meant that i dont burn food or end up making a scrambled pancake at times. That happens.
   I am sure you are good at lots of things, its just reminding yourself of those things. Not looking at the negatives.


  1. I completely agree with everything said here,but it is all pointless for me since my dad always makes me feel like I am not good enough :((( he is dissapointed in me because I dont do any sports and because I have average grades at school :( is anyone else like this? should i talk to him?

    1. Im sorry to hear this, but i really think you should talk to him... it can be tough to stand up to a parent, but if he is bringing you down and making you feel bad about yourself then you have to. It can help if you write it on a piece of paper and give it to him... write how you feel and what you think. It can be easier that way.
      But know that you ARE good at things... who cares if you dont have top grades or dont do sports, thats not the end of the world. I am sure you are good at other things... many parents think that their children have to be good at sports and maths and science and just be great at everything, otherwise they aer a failure, but thats not true. And that sort of thinking and pressure can just cause problems for the child.
      Maybe you can talk to another family memeber... or to show your dad what you are good at? Maybe you are good at writing/singing/writing poetry/baking/cooking food/painting/pottery/knitting etc etc or what it could be...

  2. thank you so much for this Izzy <3 I know for a fact feeling useless at everything and convincing myself that I was worthless was one of the things that triggered my ed and working on this and eing more positive and realising I do have talents in some ways is definitely going to be one of my new year's resolutions ;)

    I felt really sad reading your coment, Ida :( i'm not the best for giving advice about such things, but I really think you should talk to him and perhaps speak to other family members about how he makes you feel. I can relate to you in this as I was always awful at sport and when I went to college I stopped getting good grades too. but that doesn't mean you are not good at anything. I am certain you have loads of talent and potential Ida and it is so wrong of your dad to make you feel this sort of way. <3 x