Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Friday, December 5, 2014
Half recovery - and pictures that make me realise i wasnt healthy.
Half recovery... The stage where you think you are healthy, but really you arent.
You might be able to eat and close to your goal weight, but you still arent fully recovered. Trust me there is a BIG difference between half reocvered and fully recovered and you wont fully understand how big a difference there is until you are finally fully recovered.
You need to step outside of your comfort zone and do things that scare you... becuase it is scary to gain the last few kilo. To face all your fear foods and to let go of your eating disorder.
With this post i also want to mention that, it can be easy for thoughts to pop into your head where they make the past seem alot better than it actually was. Where thoughts tell you that you felt great, that you were happy and had energy when you weighed less and were sicker. But dont listen to that voice, because its not the truth. There was a reason you choose to begin fighting, so dont let go of that choice!!!
Dont let your eating disorder make the past seem like a better place, because it often wasnt. You need to let go of the past and look forward to the future!
These are just some of the photos from that stage when i thought i was recovered, eating enough and actually stil had quite alot days when i thought i was fat... which wasnt the case at all. And the portions i ate at that time....? No wonder i was so tired and depressed, my body was getting barely any energy. (Hence why i binged, purged and restricted as well). So if anyone thinks that the way i looked in these photos looks good.... then i can tell you that it is a very unhealthy body shape as i was using unhealthy methods to try to maintain that body... and this was still about 15+kg from my lowest weight.