Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Half recovered vs. fully recovered
To start off with.... this picture. Hopefully it will put some things into perspective.
When you are half recovered its easy to think that you are recovered or as healthy as you will ever be. You sort of accept the fact that you wont ever be fully free. That you will always have issues and struggle with your weight, appearance, food etc But it doesnt have to be that way. Because half recovered isnt fully recovered.
HERE is a post about the dangers of half recovery as well as links to my own half recovery.
During half recovery you still have thoughts about weight, food, your body image, wanting to change your body, you might still have fear foods etc
But you can still live your life somewhat, you might go to school or work, might be able to eat with others sometimes but it can lead to compensation the next day. Most people during half recovery or a normal weight or close to normal weight and because they can go to school/work then many people dont realise you are still struggling, or struggling as much as you are.
The thoughts CAN change, but it means you have to let go. To realise that if you need to gain weight, then you need to do that and that a few kilo wont change your body drastically or make such difference to your appearance. And whether you need to gain weight or not you need to learn to love your body.
You also need to learn to eat without guilt or anxiety and to be able to eat all types of food. Go out to cafes and restaurants and eat and be ok with that. To have others prepare you food. To be able to eat all types of food and at different times as well.
You need to face all your fears and let go of your eating disorder. To take that jump, even if its scary.
There is a big difference in the way you behave, think, look between half recovery and recovery. So you cant give up... the best way is to not settle down at where you are, but instead keep eating those fear foods. Its not enough to eat them once or go to a restaurant once and panic loads and never go back... you need to keep doing those things until they dont scare you. And to keep challenging yourself so that you can live the free and healthy and happy life you deserve. But that does require hard work!!!
Set up small goals to work towards!