After a long day in school i just wanted to come home and have the safety and comfort of home. The normal - but that was not the case today. The moving of boxes and furniture had begun at 8am this morning.. though i had already left by that time. I thought that all the items and furniture would be in the house by the time i got there a little while after 4pm, but that was not the incase... in fact i had nothing in my room... my room was the last one to be filled with furniture. So my wish of coming home and just lying down wasnt the case... there were people coming up and down the stairs, boxes being moved too and fro and i just felt it was too much. It doesnt help that im on anti biotics so i have mood swings just as it is. So i had a break down... everything felt different, unusual.... i already feel better now, when im sitting in my bed with a night snack. But right at that moment, i felt how panic was rising in me.... just wanting to go back to the past. Not move... but now i know everything is ok :)
Anyway, my sister and I, both hungry and tired after school headed to the shop to buy food but when we came back i had to begin helping bring furniture into my room and then i had to find my duvet and pillow etc and then when i finally could eat... we had no spoons, bowls etc so it was just to wait until those could be found in one of the many boxes. And eventually, more than 5 hours since i had last eaten i could finally eat a snack. My bowl of quark with granola & mini chocolate rice cakes and a celsius... followed by MANY more handfuls of granola... Half the package was eaten. Thats what happens when it goes so long between meal times... its like you just want to eat everything once you do eat.
A few hours later after moving and carrying boxes and sorting my room somewhat im now finally in bed and able to eat some food again and to rest.
Totally exhausted both mentally and physically.... so no idea what i will do tomorrow. I want to go to school but at the same time i just feel like saying Fuck it all at the moment!! hahaah XD
I am so sorry i havent answered comments the past few days - i just havent had the time. So i will try once i get a chance, i promise!