Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Sunday, December 7, 2014

Anorexia will ruin your life

Anorexia will ruin your Christmas. It will ruin your birthday. Friend’s birthdays. Your weekly social outings. Cake day in your literature class at college. The pudding you always enjoyed after dinner in an evening. 
Anorexia will ruin your wedding day. The upbringing of your children. Your relationship with your partner. 
Anorexia will ruin your friends. Your family. Your lovers. Your children. Everyone you see.
Anorexia will ruin your hair. Your nails. Your circulation. Your body. Your bones. Your love. Your trust. Your self esteem. Your happiness.
Your life.
But one day
You’ll realise
You have the power
To ruin 
You will win.
You’ll get your friends back. Your family will smile when you accept a cookie. Your teachers will laugh when you light up the room with your healthy smile. Your children will love it when Mum bakes and shares it with them. Your partner will hug you and not feel bones but curves and still think you’re just as god damned beautiful as the first day he met you.
You’ll get your healthy hair back. You’ll get strong nails. You’ll be able to wear nice clothes in whatever god damned size your body wants to be. You’ll look in the mirror and fucking smile.
And it might take time. And you might relapse. 
And that’s okay.
We all need time. We don’t always succeed straight away.
But trust me darling.
You’ll get your life back.
And it’ll be fucking worth it.

*Not my words.


  1. When I first saw the title of the post I was like haha that's very straightforward!!

    Its kind of funny because I just had cake in my English class but I ate it!! I didn't want to because I really wanted a no dessert day since ive been eating it a lot but I said no! In the past you never would have denied cake. Part of recovery is being able to eat the surprise foods given out to you, even if theyre not part of what you planned to eat that day.