Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, November 22, 2014

Tunnel run 2014

Back home again after a very exciting afternoon :)

I dont even know where to start? So much to remember, all my senses on high wire! So it started off with my mum drove us to the nearest parking place and because we were running late i had to run c.a 800m to the starting place where it was chaos!!! I had no idea what was happening or where to be, and the queues for the bathroom were FOREVER. So i ended up missing my start group.... oops. But i just went with the next start group 10 minutes later anyway. There was a warm up but i was so nervous and felt anxious because i was in the wrong group and didnt really know if i should move forward or what to do. But then the horn went off and it was just to slowly make your way forward and soon i could begin running.
  Every km in the tunnel there was a different 'entertainment' such as music, or pitch black so all you saw where the white lines on the ground and the neon yellow of everyones jackets, there was also this one 'event' where they sprayed fake snow!!
 There was no headphones allowed as safety precautions and i was worried that i would motivation, but not at all. It was just fun to run and have so many other amazing people doing the same thing around me!
 There were quite a few long, steep rises which made my legs burn and hard to breathe. They were awful the long rises, but it was just to put one foot infront of the other and keep going! There were several times where i felt i couldnt breathe at all - it didnt help that in some places it was so crowded that it felt like there was no oxygen! By the 6km mark it was then that the i just want to lie down and never move again thoughts came into my head. But by 7km i was back on track with the i never want to stop running!!!

By 9km i was both happy and exhausted, but i knew what awaited me... practically 1km of a gradual upphill. With burning legs and burning lungs i continued running up the hill and then suddenly i had crossed the line!!!

I got a little goodie bag and a medal as well!!! :) My new goal... start collecting medals and number bibs :):) hahaha

After the race - and during - i felt this amazing rush of proudness over myself and what i have achieved!!! How far i have come and how i can treat my body so well, how my body and mind have been through so much but is stronger than ever now! :) Trust me this proudness over both my body and mind, of what i can achieve NOW that i couldnt achieve before. That should be one of the reasons and motivators to recover.... to just be so FREAKING proud and happy over eveyrthing you have achieved :)

Take care of your body and treat it well, then it will last a life time!


  1. Amazing achievement Izzy!! You should feel proud of yourself! I think it's a great goal to collect all your number bibs and medals that's what I've done and it's great looking back on them now. So many happy memories :)

  2. That is so cool!!! So happy for you!!! Makes me want to run a race too! Do you have any tips on how to prepare for, say, a 5-10k race? I don't have any particular plan on when I'm going to run a race, but in the following year definitely it is one of my goals. :)

    1. Thank you :)
      Ill try write a post about this, though i dont know if im the best person to ask for running tips!

  3. wow im so proud of you! :) hopefully I can do a race in february if my weight is good and ill tell you about it :)

    1. Thank you :) Ohh im so excited for you, let me know if you do run the race!