Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Sunday, November 9, 2014

Study. Eat. Study.Eat....

My day today has consisted of studying and eating... nothing else really.
  After breakfast i sat by the kitchen table and began doing my work, but felt very unfocused and just did all these small things instead of actually focusing on the bigger things like studying for my civics or maths test or writing my science or individual project. Instead it was just writing notes, translating french words, english book research etc etc So didnt feel productive at all...
  And lots and lots of snack to fuel my not so good studying. I think ive eaten around 150g raisins and 100-200g nuts today.... & like 6 squares of dark chocolate (and lunch and my afternoon snack) those were just inbetween snacks(?!?) Yup.. that happens ;);) Im a snacker!!!

I could almost go on the show secret eaters as i snack so much and just take handfuls of food here and there -_-' This is a goal of mine to try to stop. Not because im gaining weight or anything, its not like that. But i think its good to have structured eating and not get into the habit of just taking handfuls of food here and there. But im only human .- im not some perfect robot who eats her meals every 2-3 hours and is never hungry inbetween... infact, i wouldnt even want to write a food diary or calculate my calories because im pretty sure i would scare myself ;);)
(Just some food thoughts!)

This evening i think im going to watch a movie with my sister - or maybe not. And im currently making chocolate granola (ill see how it goes/tastes).... and trying to get rid of this guilt/anxiety that i didnt work enough today, that i just did a bunch of nothing when really i should have been studying or writing on my projecets :(  Usch... anxiety. But i have tomorrow off so im going to work on them then! Or so i tell myself!


  1. So much Celcius! (I'm so jealous aha). Try not to let the anxiety get the better of you. I learnt it's harder to focus when you're feeling guilty for not doing as much work as you'd hoped to achieve. It's only natural to have days you don't do as much as you wanted, and don't beat yourself up over it :)

    1. yeah!!! :) I only drink like 1 or 2 MAX per week.. some weeks not at all, so it will last a while. So i saw it as an investment instead of just buying seperate ones in the shop!
      And that is great advice, i should take that on board :)

    2. I completely understand, aha!! I also prefer to buy things in bigger quantities than have to continuously buy them more frequently, I then seem to appreciate them more as well aha?? :)