Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Saturday, November 1, 2014

Slow Saturday

This Saturday seems to just drag by.... i woke up at 8am amd my plans for the day have just hopped from one to another and back again.
    It was pouring with rain this morning and i was home alone with the dog so i decided to take it easy with a cup of tea, double portion of yoghurt and granola for breakfast. Then i headed to the gym where i just did whatever i felt like which was powerwalk, intervals and some core work (first time in weeks it feels like :))
  Came home and began answering emails followed by c.a 30 minutes school work. An early lunch was followed by the left overs of ice cream yesterday & a questbar while watching a series.
   I took daisy out for another rainy walk before i then had a spa afternoon - washing my hair, facial care and everything else. Even lit a scented candle... yup, thats alot of effort from me!!

Then the hunger cues set in again and it was time for a snack (which i will show my next post :)) and since then ive been watching series.

Its weird to think that its the 1st November already. in 29 days its my birthday and in 30 days we're moving. These 2 things will be mentioned alot in the next month, so i apologise in advance for that!!!  ^_^
   Today i suddenly got this weird nostalgic feeling when doing the dishwasher - of all things. Realising that in just 4 weeks i will never do the dishwasher here again. My room wont be the same. I will have to take a new route to and from school everyday. No longer just a bus that take 10 minutes. I wont be as close to school anymore.... things wont be the same. And it does cause a little bit of anxiety because being comfortable is a nice thing. You have your routines and habits but at the same time i am excioted to move. But its the unknown of everything, its the new and different which can seem a little scary at first.
   The week before we move i am pretty sure i will start feeling a little more anxious and apprehensive to the move.

I have already begun packing things in boxes and over the past few weeks our items in the rest of the house have begun being placed in boxes.... being packed away and ready to go on December the 1st. Its going to feel so weird when all the furniture is gone, the day before we move when all my items packed in boxes... its something like the 10th time i have moved in my life. But it still feels strange. :/

However... to cheer me up i decided to draw eyebrows on Daisy (NO animal cruelty was involved!! She got lots of chicken while i drew them on :)). Unfortunatly now i cant stop laughing at her and i feel so bad :):) I dont want to wash them off :) 


  1. Oh that feeling! When you think 'is this the last time ill be here, is this the last time I'm doing this?' And when you move you can't help but think these thoughts. I recently moved and I miss my home like crazy. I miss the people I used to see every day, the city, the country, the weather, I miss speaking Russian as now Zi don't speak Russian as much and only with my family, I miss my route to school, I miss how the people are, I miss the buildings,I miss everything. And yes because it's familiar but also because its my home, it's we're I grew up and I truly love that country even if it has lots of problems etc. I will always love that place and even if I don't live there Iwill keep coming back for sure.
    Lots of rambling^^ -_-
    Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that it can be hard, but eventually it will get easier. Even if you miss your old place the new one will become more familiar and comfortable. When I just moved into my new apartment Ifelt really out of place and like everything was dirty. But now I feel much better with the place.
    Hope everything turns out ok! :)

    1. Oh and Daisy looks adorable. It's more then likely I will do that to my dog ;)

    2. I completly understand what you mean with moving, that was a bit how it was when i moved to Sweden. However i love Sweden so much so that i dont miss Ireland so much anyway. Luckily for me we arent moving so far, i still go to the same school and such. But its still a move and when you have your routines and habits it can be hard to start verything again. But its a good chance anyway :) And im glad you feel more settled now :)

      If you do put eyebrows on your dog, can you send me a picture. haha :) oohh also know, it can be hard to get it off later!