Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Sunday, November 23, 2014

Relaxing Sunday

Yesterday evening i felt how my whole body began to hurt, it wasnt a question of what hurts. but what doesnt hurt? However after 10 hours sleep i woke up feeling fresh and my muscles and body barely hurt at all. When i came home from the race i spent the rest of the day in bed and eating, i felt like i should do something useful like study which was needed but at the same time i couldnt quite bring myself to the table. I just wanted to lie in bed,so that is what i did and then i fell asleep and slept for 10 hours! Its not so much the running that tired me out, but the nerve before and all the new experiences and people everywhere. I do think its a little crazy though that i used to run 10km 5-6days a week and still go to the gym? And i ate ALOT less than i do now..... all i was doing was breaking down my body at that time, no wonder i fell into a depression again, Taking myself out of my exercise addiction was one of the best things ive done! It is such an awful addiction to live with, because it turns something fun, something you once enjoyed into something anxiety filled and negative. Something you forve yourself to do even if you dont want to.

Know that if you have had an execise addiction - or have one now, that doesnt mean you cant exercise ever again. It just means that you need to find balance and do the exercise you enjoy, not force yourself to do something you dont like or to think of exercise as burning calories/getting rid of guilt/compensating. Thats not how it should be seen.

Back to the main topic!!! After breakfast im now planning to go to the gym and do some foam rolling and stretching. I  would normall do that in my room (the foam rolling anyway) but as my room is just filled with boxes i have no space to do it. But its kind of nice to go to the gym anyway :) Just have my headphones in, be in my own little space and be at the place i love!

Then its studying, cleaning and packing that awaits. Not the most fun Sunday, but in a week and a days time, then we're moving and then it will be unpacking that counts :) And only 2 more tough weeks of school left - then it will just be focus on my own individual project, which is coming together quite nicely if im honest :)


  1. 10k five to six days a week is crazy!I used to jog with walking intervals 5-15km with my dog most days of the week eating so little.Cant believe how dumb I was.

    1. Its crazy to think some of the things i did when i was sick... But now im better and can look back at those times and learn from my mistakes :)

  2. I know what you mean. I hated feeling like I had to run all the time! Just getting in the car made me feel sick and anxious because I thought I was fat and lazy and should have been running.... It feels so great not giving in to that urge, even though it's still there sometimes.

    1. I used to feel the same way about the car. But its just silly thoughts because resting doesnt harm you or make you fat. Its about finding a balance :)