Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Its not self discipline

Something i have noticed is that people to seem to think i have alot of self discipline. They tell me im great for having such discipline and going to the gym. They think i never eat chocolate or cake. They think morning walks are a form of punishment and that eating brocolli means you are on a diet or trying to lose weight.

But i laugh at the fact that people think i have self discipline!!! Because i really dont... my only self discipline is eating 2 rows of chocolate instead of 3.. (but then eating that 3rd row later on because... well, its just 1 row, right?!) My working out isnt due to discipline, its due to enjoyment. If i enjoyed lying in the couch and watching TV all day then im sure i would do that instead but as i love moving my body and love working out thats what i do. Its not a form of punishment or because i have so much self control and power.
  And the way i eat... well there is no self control there at all. Though because i let myself eat whatever i want when i want and the amount i want i dont ever feel deprived and i dont binge either. But i mean there have been times ive eaten a few questbars in a row.... not because of a binge but because well i was hungry and they tasted so good. If i actually had self discipline i would have stopped at 1. But nope, I eat, i enjoy, i move on.

When it comes to school work ihave more self discipline, but during weekdays i can barely get any work done at home so i know that i need to sit in school afterwards and work so that i get soemthing done. But thats about the self discipline i have (and also doing the work of course :))

But dont look at me and think i am some robot because i really amnt. I am a human being. I have days i eat loads, days i eat more food than my belly lets me just because it tastes so good. I eat all types of food, not just what i post here! 

Its not about self discipline its about healthy and knowing what my body wants. 


  1. Wow I love this post!! I think this is a common opinion of anyone who's suffered from anorexia. Anorexia isn't about having self-discipline, it's about having a disease. I think most anorexia sufferers think they DON'T have any discipline. Then when they recover, they actually start listening to their bodies as well as their minds and doing what makes them feel good. Weight loss, healthy or unhealthy, or just being healthy in general, doesn't necessarily correlate with self-discipline and I don't think that's what being healthy should be centered around. xo

  2. Hey, this is completely irrelevant, but when I type your URL with an absent mind I may often forget to put the triple w on there first. That leads me to a visually VERY suspicious website that I have been too paniced to observe more precisely. Do you, Izzy, or my fellow readers have any idea if this quirky page is about to do or already might have done some damage to my gadgets?

    1. Is it a site where its like 'buy this URL'? Then its fine, its not a virus or anything. Its just the domain i bought includes the www. .... but i do that all the time sometimes where i just type in 'lifewithoutanorexia' and this site comes up.

  3. There is some green, I think, and it gives some info around "The address lifewithoutanorexia(dotcom) has been sold blahblah". I also have a fuzzy memory of a smily bug or some kind of equally appealing icon on the top of the page. You call that back?

    1. Yeah there is like a sign in the left corner and it says Go Daddy?

    2. That might be there very well. Seems to be that we're speaking of the same place.

  4. i don't think you need to worry because i get that too... do you get it in the language of your country??

    1. Yes, it comes in Finnish! Feels good to hear from others, too :)

  5. yes, i get the same and it is in french because i live in france... and the "go daddy" sign too... so no worries :) (or maybe we are all getting hacked but i don't think so...)