Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Saturday, November 8, 2014

Freedom

*Post from 2012*

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Realising what a freedom i have...  And i never want to let go of it. I never want my freedom taken away again.
  
Living my life. Like a normal person. Most people think they're life sucks, its so normal... and i guess it is.
  But like today, i realise that it is so much more... Its freedom.

To be able to go to town if you feel like it, to make plans, go to school.
  
To feel hungry... and eat. Not worry about calories, or fat. Not sit pondering if you should eat or not. To just know that you're hungry and know its ok to eat... Its freedom. 
  To go to the bathroom after eating, and theres nothing strange with that. (Even sometimes now, i'm like, no.. i shouldnt go to the bathroom after dinner. Even though its like.. im not going in to purge/self harm/ exercise... i need the bathroom...)

I never want my freedom taken away.... ive worked so hard. I know what life is like when you literally live in a box, with hundreds of rules abour everything. where your options, your choices are all minimized, where you cant decide anything for yourself.

Why would anyone give up there freedom, just to be skinny? Why... some i guess dont know the consequencse, what its like to not be allowed any choices, to not decide what you want to do... that you have to follow instructions and rules.
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Me. Im never going back to that Hell.


I love being able to go to school, being home. I love lying in bed at night, and thinking over what i've done that day.. whether i've felt depressed all day, or laughed all day... to just know that i've chosen what to do.
  I love eating dinner with my family, sitting in the sitting room watching a program with my sister,  i love cuddling my dog.
  I love talking and laughing. I love going for runs and walks, i love sitting out in the sun.

I love life, and i wont let Anorexia take that away from me again. 
  
I will be ME.  and i will make MY choices. I decide to live my life the way I want to, not the way Ana decides.
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Please.... fight against anorexia. fight against your ED. dont let it take away your life, take away your choices... dont limit yourself to a routine, to living in a small black square box.
   Live your life, and enjoy it. You only have 1 life.

Do you really want to spend it sick? spend your life wishing to die?

4 comments:

  1. This is such a wonderful, inspirational post Izzy <3 it really serves to remind me what I am going to miss out on, if I stay stuck in ED mode for the rest of my life.
    I am hopeful that things are going to get better. Over the past few weeks, things have been very, very different for me...challening and hard. But I know it is for the better. there have been loads of days when I havent exercised...and I felt ok. It was fine! I think I'm finaly beginning to let go of that obsession and realise life is NOT all about exercise and staying at the same weight. I'm trying new foods I never would have dreamed of having before and discovering that I love them! And I am so, so looking forward to that day when there will be no more monitoring of weight, no worrying about whether i have eaten enough or too little, of being able to do what i want and be the person i want to be. And I know it is reachable :) and life really is too short to spend constantly spent worrying and stressing about weight gain and size and so forth.
    Thank you Izzy for posting this, it really did touch my heart <3 xxx

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    1. I am so happy to read this and hear that things are getting a little better! Stay strong adn think of the positives and remember to keep moving forward and making life the way you want it!

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    2. :) They really are Izzy! I have so much to thank you for in helping me to overcome these fears and anxieties though <3 thank you so so much! You and your log are truly, truly special <3 xxx

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    3. :( BLOG I mean, not log! Sorry Izzy! :/ xxx

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