Change. It's part of being a human and living your life.... things change and you can't always control it. I have had a lot of control issues the past few years, mainly due to anorexia and that was even a reason why I think my anorexia developed. Due to wanting control. I have let go of alot of my control issues and can now live freely and do things spontaneously, I don't need to plan every second of my day. However change is something that can still cause anxiety. Because even if it's a good change its now, 7 days before we move that I'm starting to get anxiety about it. How everything will be different. I can't just take the bus to school or walk 15 minutes if that's what I feel like. my room will be different. Nothing will be the same at home. And it is sort of scary, but it's also a good thing. To expose yourself to things that make you uncomfortable. Otherwise you can't grow and become stronger. The anxious feelings however kept me up last night and i only got around 5 hours sleep last night. So this morning the smallest thing made me feel irritated and angry!!! ^-^The perfect amount of sleep for me is 10 hours!!! hahah
After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was. I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!
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