Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Anxiety filled night

Last night was not a good night.... i just tossed and turned and just when i had turned off the light and closed my eyes. This round of anxiety over moving hit me hard..... it was like i realised that in just about 3 weeks time ill go to school and then come home to a new house.... never see the inside of this apartment again :( I think a part of what makes it a little more scary is that i have only seen/been in the new apartment once and i liked it. I truly did... but i never got the feeling of this is home/going to be my new home. But im good at adapting so i know it wont be so hard.
  Another thing which added to my anxiety was all my deadlines.. piling ontop of one another, my days are long and by the end of the day i dont want to study anymore, but that is what is needed to get everything done in time. I trly feel sorry for those who work after school. I would like to work - earn my own money but i know that i wouldnt have time for it... which also adds to guilty feelings. Though of course my parents understand this.. however once i  begin working ill be paying for food and rent as well (though hopefully in my own apartment!)

I lay half awake for several hours and dreaded today but i woke up at 6.30am this morning without an alarm (my alarm was set for 7.30am)  and i felt wide awak so i thought i might as well use the extra time and take Daisy for a walk. Clear my thoughts and start my day in the best way possible. So that is exactly what i did!
 It actually wasnt cold or dark outside. Everybody keeps saying its getting colder but i dont notice anything.. though i think i need to go to the doctor because i seem to always be super warm. And i dont even know why... unless its something with hormones/metabolism/thyroid

^^she hates the camera

Today its back to school and im sure all my thoughts will go away :)

1 comment:

  1. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this :( it's hard when you know you'll probably never come back to the place you've grown so attached to. And moving does often involve anxiety. I totally understand you. But I'm sure you'll adapt and once you've spent more time in your new home it will feel better too :)
    I, on the other hand, feel cold a lot of times (not of malnourishment, just because I've always been like that ;))