Another thing which added to my anxiety was all my deadlines.. piling ontop of one another, my days are long and by the end of the day i dont want to study anymore, but that is what is needed to get everything done in time. I trly feel sorry for those who work after school. I would like to work - earn my own money but i know that i wouldnt have time for it... which also adds to guilty feelings. Though of course my parents understand this.. however once i begin working ill be paying for food and rent as well (though hopefully in my own apartment!)
I lay half awake for several hours and dreaded today but i woke up at 6.30am this morning without an alarm (my alarm was set for 7.30am) and i felt wide awak so i thought i might as well use the extra time and take Daisy for a walk. Clear my thoughts and start my day in the best way possible. So that is exactly what i did!
It actually wasnt cold or dark outside. Everybody keeps saying its getting colder but i dont notice anything.. though i think i need to go to the doctor because i seem to always be super warm. And i dont even know why... unless its something with hormones/metabolism/thyroid
^^she hates the camera
Today its back to school and im sure all my thoughts will go away :)
I'm so sorry you're feeling like this :( it's hard when you know you'll probably never come back to the place you've grown so attached to. And moving does often involve anxiety. I totally understand you. But I'm sure you'll adapt and once you've spent more time in your new home it will feel better too :)
ReplyDeleteI, on the other hand, feel cold a lot of times (not of malnourishment, just because I've always been like that ;))
Olivia