Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, October 30, 2014

When the day blurs into one

Wondering where this day has gone, which i seem to do with far too many days recently.
    After breakfast it was a visit to the gym where i could tune everything out for a while and listen to my new workout music and just feel super strong. Be in my zone. I love it :) And even if i have all the time in the world - almost my workouts are still only 45-60 minutes... how people manage to have 2 hour workouts? Its like... what do they do... how do they have energy? I eat lots but after an hour.. all energy is gone.
   Though really, no more than an hour is needed anyway... not unless you are some strong lifter or cross fitter who spend 2-5 hours at the gym everyday. Somedays i think i could do that, but i think 80 minutes is my MAX energy amount ;)

^^Just some random babbling.

I had packed lunch with me so i took the bus to the library and sat there with my computer, documents and lunch, and began trying to remember where i last left off. Ive noticed that looking in my journal jsut stresses me out.... the 8 page science essay i thought was due week 49 is actually week 47... i had planned to not begin working on it until after the break as i have other things to focus on as well, but now i realise i have to begin on it if i am going to manage my upcoming history essay, maths test, english essay and my own project research at the same time.
  Ohh the wonders of school, even on the school break it seems to haunt me. not stressing. Instead, i closed my journal, began my research, worked for 3 hours and then felt satisfied with my work for the day (and will go back tomorrow).
  There is no point stressing, i am actually doing something about my work load. And i am in good time as well.

Stress = anxiety = feeling depressed = my stomach getting all messed up = pain and bloating. = feeling even worse = NOT WORTH IT.

Stress is really the worst thing for your body, so i am trying to avoid it as much as possible :)

So this evening its been series watching and making pancakes.... which turned more into a black scramble... which i ended up eating most of anyway = sore stomach.

Now..... time to do something other than lie in bed. Time to maybe socialize, or something?! :) (Yes, i like to write out my trail of thoughts on my blog ) :)

Have a great day/evening/night :)

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