Life without Anorexia

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'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

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Sunday, October 5, 2014

Waking up sober

Hello :)

This post is most probably going to be a long thoughts post....rambling the thoughts that pop into my head :) So bear with me!

So yesterday i was at a party at my friends house as she had just had her birthday. She had invited c.a 90 people to her party so i was expecting it to get a little crazy, and by the end of the night it did.
  When my friends and I first got there we were some of the first people so we got time to talk to our friend - the birthday girl as well as just mingle. And as the time went on more people came, more alcohol was drunk, the dancing started, more people crowded the rooms so you had to squeeze your way past people.
   My closest friends only drank a little and i completely abstained from alcohol. There were times during the evening when i saw all the alcohol and i thought to myself, go on, take some. Take some of the wine or vodka or even a cider. But i knew that that was just the social pressure around me, no one was making or forcing me drink. Infact nobody really cared what the other person drank. But it was more that i felt like maybe i was missing out on something? But the only mixing of drinks i did was cola and sprite zero (actually tastes good:)) and i had a celsius with me to give me energy and to have more of a festive drink!
   The reason i chose to not drink alcohol is because i see it as toxic. Its not something i want to put into my body... when it comes to alcohol i am an all or nothing type of person. Either i dont drink at all or i go all out and drink 4 ciders, a few glasses of wine etc and wake up regretting it.... Like i did in 2012. Summer of 2012 i drank quite a bit with one of my friends and the things i did and the awful feeling of waking up hungover... that was what made me not want to drink.
  As well as now when i really do try to take care of my body i dont want to put something into it that will make me feel sick or break down my body. Instead i want to nourish it and take care of it!
  However lots of chips and pretzels were eaten... needed energy for the dancing ;)

I saw a different side of many people and people in my class yesterday, it was an uncomfortable feeling. I dont like alcohol, i dont like the effect it has on people. Seeing people pass out, cry, throw up and do embarrassing things - all caught on camera - it makes me feel sorry for those people and makes me happy that i am not one of those people.
   Also i got offered a cigarette c.a 10 times and there were moments when i almost wanted to say yes... so many other people smoking and well, how do i know i dont like smoking if i have never tried it. But i had a clear head and said no and i am so happy for that, i know if i would have drunk i would most probably have said yes... a choice which i very much would have regretted. I have enough problems trying to breathe as it is, im not going to add in smoke and chemicals and a poision.

In general i had a good evening with my friends - those who didnt get drunk anyway. But it does make me thankful of how i chose to live my life. You definitely dont need alcohol to have fun... i had plenty of fun without it. And i atleast wake up sober. I have a day ahead of me where i can focus on school work and emails among other things. Im not going to lie in bed, throwing up and having a hangover headache!
 
No pictures were taken last night as i was busy mingling, but maybe some of my friends will upload photos and well... if i look good in one (doubt it!!!) i might post it :) haha

Have a lovely day everyone - im going to be busy sitting infront of a computer and typing so not sure when i will update again :)

5 comments:

  1. Izzy- you don't know how happy i am to finally hear someone with exactly the same views as me!! I agree with you on every single point you wrote, and it is true that seeing people in a different light is actually quite an uncomfortable feeling... I am glad you didn't drink or smoke-even though it is your choices and your body- and it's great that now you feel good waking up and being able to do anything you want on sunday instead of feeling horrible after drinking!! :) lots of hugs :)

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  2. Izzy- you don't know how happy i am to finally hear someone with exactly the same views as me!! I agree with you on every single point you wrote, and it is true that seeing people in a different light is actually quite an uncomfortable feeling... I am glad you didn't drink or smoke-even though it is your choices and your body- and it's great that now you feel good waking up and being able to do anything you want on sunday instead of feeling horrible after drinking!! :) lots of hugs :) }

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  3. Sorry for the double publish... :(

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  4. Thank god someone who thinks the same. I also don't drink. Partly because of my IBS but also because I don't want to, I see what it does to people. You don't have to drink to have fun, you make it a fun time yourself!

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  5. Thank god someone who thinks the same. I also don't drink. Partly because of my IBS but also because I don't want to, I see what it does to people. You don't have to drink to have fun, you make it a fun time yourself!

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