Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, October 6, 2014

Time is flying by

October the 6th and you can definitely tell that autumn is rolling in... the leaves are falling off the trees. The darkness is setting in earlier and the coldness is creeping up.
  Today it was one of the coldest days so far...Fingers and hands were frozen. And regretted not having a long armed top in school :(

Monday - my longest day in school but today it just flew by. With extreme tiredness during my last class.
  Ive mentioned many times before but when it comes to school assignments one of the reasons i start doing assignments as soon as i get them is because 1) i know that i will get more in a day or two and 2) i feel stressed if the assignments start piling up.
  At the moment i am working on 7-10 different things at the same time, but yet.... there is more coming. And i've just had this wave of hopelessness..... wanting to give up on school. No more school work.
 Sometimes i wonder how the people who plan the education think....  It wouldnt surprise me if people start having mental or nervous break downs soon due to the stress put on us this year. Getting A's is even harder than normal. The year that i started my new school was the year that the grading system changed in  Sweden making it harder to achieve higher grades... a battle which all of us in school now have to fight. Struggling for an A when the chances of getting a D are much higher.

   Today has been a cold, dark day and i have just wanted to throw in the towel when it comes to school and school work.
  But i know tomorrow is a new day and by the weekend hopefully my motivation will be back and i will feel better after sitting a few hours in the library and able to focus on my school work!!

On my previous post where you asked questions and i asked whether you wanted video or post format the majority i.e 99% voted video. Which surprised me... i was thinking all of you would write post format. Hahaha :)
So i will try to make a video as soon as i can  - hopefully Wednesday or Thursday (as i want to use day light and not awful ceiling light!)
And i will try to stay away from the Ummms, ahhhs, like..... :):)
But i may answer a few questions in post format as well if i get the time :)

Have a lovely day/evening everyone :)


  1. I love the jeans :) you should wear it more often :)

    And I also love your voice so go ahead and doa video:)

    We are not perfect so don't worry about the "ummmms"....

    1. They are my new jeans :) First time wearing them!!
      And thank you :) hahah

  2. Hey I have a question for your vlog!!

    I was just curious, in your old photos theres a lot where your whole body is in the picture. How did you take a picture like that?? Like did someone else take it for you or was there a timer etc??


    Oh and stumbling on is more normal!! That way it seems less rehearsed and more personable!!

    1. I had a timer on ;) I was quite obsessed with taking full body pictures of myself. I couldnt believe what my eyes saw in the mirror so i took photos but i still hated whati saw in the pictures.

  3. Hey izzy, just a quick question. I know that you have recovered but do you think you still have any little eating disorder traits that have stuck with you. Like not ones that are necessarily harmful to your health but are still typical eating disorder stuff like always eating with the same cutlery or crockery or even following any eating rituals?? I only ask because while I am still not fully recovered I still do some typical eating disorder things that don't directly hurt my health but are still not normal behaviors. Thanks. :) x

    1. Ive never thought about this... no i dont have any weird habits like i have to have the same bowls or plates or have to sit in the same seat etc
      If you are obsessed or compelled to do those types of things then it doesnt have to be an ED thing, more of a habit. But if you get anxiety or feel bad because you do something different than those usual things then i would try my best to get rid of them... you dont want to be controlled by small things like that.