Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Protein, carbs and fat

When i make food i dont think in calories or in macros. But today when i had made my snack - all the foods i was craving - i realised that it was a very good ratio of the different macros :)

Carbs in the fruit and bread.
 Protein in the eggs, salmon, walnuts and even bread
Healthy fats in the egg yolk, salmon, walnuts!

I hadnt eaten in quite a few hours so my stomach was rumbling and in need of a big snack! Which was exactly what i made :) My body definitely thanks me for the delicious meal :)

This morning when i went to the gym i decided to do HIIT - something which i havent done since i sprained my ankle in July(?). Ive been able to run, i mean i ran the 10km midnight race but with HIIT ive just been too scared to do it. I didnt want my ankle to pop or to run so fast and jump off wrong etc and then i just didnt feel motivated to it. But today it went super well... not as fast as before, but that is something i can definitely work up again. And i felt how my breathing got easier!! I havent been able to run recently because of my lungs and breathing and the only cardio i have done is when i go powerwalks 1-2 times a week. So i think the HIIT is going to help both my breathing and running!!! Excited to be back at it again :) Also improvements with my strength!!!
   Remember FOOD IS IMPORTANT. Dont skip food. And to those of you who exercise or strength train, DONT restrict or eat less... eat more than you think you need to. This will help you and help your results! Trust me :)

Today has been a day filled with lots of school work so now im going to give my mind a rest!!


  1. Hi sweet you:) i was wondering if you ever measure your food? Like for examble in the morning for your porrigde ?
    Hygz R

    1. The only food i measure is my oats but i mean when i add water or egg whites to it i dont measure. And often when i make recipes example when i make pancakes i dont actually measure anything... i dont really see the point! yhaha

    2. Ah okay:) i am struggeling with stop counting calories right now.. I wish I would not remeber all the calorie contents of the food..
      But I do mu best to distract myself while making and eating food..:) but when I get bored, scared, sad ect. it os so hard to stop counting my intake..

  2. Just a question about your exercise, when you started and eventually got into the balance of things, how did you know what was enough for your body- not too much or too little? I seem to have a hard time in finding the balance as when I got back to exercising I tried to listen to my body and didn.'t think I was doing too much until 2 months later I got sick again. But if I do any less it feels like I'm just not progressing at all.

    1. Hope it´s ok if I share a thing I´ve heard here.
      When your underweight there is NO such thing as eating too much, it´s all needed!
      Here is how I understand this. As long as you are uncertain of your body´s signals, you should eat A LOT, then with time when the inner repair in your body is done the hunger and fullness signals can be trusted again. :)

    2. It was about trial and error to begin with. I realised that my workout plan might not be exactly what my body needed or wanted. Somedays i just didnt have the energy to do as much as i had planned and once i realised that, learnt to trust my body... fo 45 minutes stretch instead of circuit training or do 10 minutes warm up and some strength training instead of 50 minutes cardio followed by 60 minutes strength. When i learnt i could actually do less and still gett results then i found the balance.
      Do what feels good... do what you enjoy thats the way i see it. I love strength training, i love using heavy weights so thats what i do but i also change up my workout... thats how i see results. Whether i do 30 minutes workout or 90 minutes i give the best i have right then. I dont put up any rules around my training and i dont have a plan i follow either... i.e i think of some exercises i will do before hand. But how many sets, reps etc i use depends on how i feel when im working out :)

      And to the second Anon that is completely right. In recovery there isnt really anything as too much... because you can have a period of extreme hunger where people can eat up to 5000-6000kcal a day and that isnt over eating, that is just eating what the body needs right then.

  3. Your food looks as yummy as always! ;)
    I'd like to know how you make the bread as I think you've once mentioned that you make your own 'microwave bread' ..?! I'd really like to have a recipe for that as I need a fast solution if there's no bread at home left ;D

    1. Thank you :)
      I dont have a recipe... i just potatoe fiber, crush psyllium seeds, eggs or egg whites, milk and baking power. Mix until its its sort of liquid, but not really... and then into the microwave for c.a 2-4 minutes. I use like a whole bowl full of potatoe fiber for c.a 6 pieces of bread.

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    1. Det var de verkligen ocksÄ!!

  5. Im hoping for a microwave-bread recipe too ^^ ;)

    1. Liike i wrote in the comment above. I dont really use any measurements.