Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Saturday, October 18, 2014

Just Breathe

My tattoo which i got almost 2 and a half years ago. I often forget that i have it, its just when someone points it out or i notice it in a mirror or something like that. But at times i can find that when im anxious or stressed i tell myself to just breathe. And then i find myself smiling a little... because that reminder is literally marked on me. Its part of me.... reminding me to just breathe.
   Only really my family know the meaning behind it... but it has so many meanings to it.

It stands for my Cystic Fibrosis. A part of me, something which i can never get rid of.  Its not my identity, but its still part of who i am. It reminds me that even if at times i struggle to breathe, if at times it feels like im drowning, not able to get breathe or breathe deep enough. I know that all i can do is try to keep breathing.

It reminds me to not give up on life.... until i stop breathing i will still be alive. No matter how tough life is... no matter how much stress or anxiety i have. As long as i keep breathing i will be ok.

It reminds me of my past, but not in a negative way. But in a positive way. It reminds me that i fought through depressions, fought through an eating disorder, fought through panic, anxiety and guilt. Ive been through so much, so many hopeless times. So many tear filled nights, thoughts of suicide and giving up on life. But i didnt... i kept breathing and that is what i will keep doing. As long as i breathe i will be ok.

It reminds me that everything will be ok, that sometimes all i can literally doing is to keep breathing. To just calm down, not think, not move.... but just stay focused and breathe.

It reminds me of life, of never giving up.

It also reminds me of exercise, of how much i love exercise. Running, moving my body, breathing.

So much meaning behind it, but many think its just some silly quote i have picked. But to me, its a quote about life and death. A quote about my past, about my future and about my present. Its a reminder to myself.
People have different opinions on tattoos and thats ok, i respect everyones opinions. But i dont respect someone who tries to bring me down for my choice of having tattoos (which nobody - apart from my mum - thankfully has done). To me, my two tattoos mean so much to me. And sure maybe i will regret it when im 50, but i like to think.... live with no regrets. I did what i wanted at that time and its a choice i havent regretted since. Its a part of who i am, a part of my history and also a part of future.


  1. Hi, Izzy! I think your tattoos are beautiful! And your idea is great! I think it's our decision to have or not to have tattoos. I'm with you haha ❤️

  2. Izzy, this text was so beautiful. The meanings of your tattoo are beautiful, your tattoo is beautiful and you are so beautiful! ❤❤❤