Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Best/worst Vacation

By this stage of my blog, im pretty sure you all know my best and work vacation as i have mentioned it before.... But i guess ill write it again.

Worst vacation:
Back to Ireland for Christmas 2010. I had been at Mando for c.a 7 months where about 6 months had been spent as an inpatient. It wasnt me who wanted to go to Ireland infact i really didnt want to go, but my mum got me out of Mando. I had basically told her if i go things will go wrong, I already knew it. I had decided before hand that now was my chance to lose the little weight i had already gained - to restrict, exercise, purge if needed. I didnt even want to try giving healthy a go.
   The awful trip started in a bad way as way... when packing i was supposed to bring Scandishake mix (a supplement, high energy milkshake powder )with me to Ireland but i didnt pack them and my mum was too busy with other things to remember them. And from there it went down hill..... crying, screaming, anxiety, self harm, weight loss, threats, avoiding family, having family scream at me, ruining everyones christmas. Came back to Sweden, had lost alot of weight, was in a very bad mental state and was immediately made an inpatient again. That trip was one of bad memories, guilt and anxiety.

^^You can see the absaloute tiredness and defeat in my eyes in the photos... its almost scary.

Best trip:
 This is between Disneyland Paris and New York. I really cant choose between the two because they were both awesome and memories i will never forget! Ive already written so much about these 2 trips so i will avoid rewriting it all :)

^¨No its not just salad leaves in that salad... hahahah!


Look at the difference in the photos and tell me that you dont want to recover??!


  1. Ha, Ha, Ha... Eiffel Tower !!!! Symbol of my country !!!
    How did you like Paris? Me ???? I hate Paris.....people are dirty and rude ! Tube: Beurk .....

    You know what !!!!!


    I made an offer and the seller agreed !! I will be soon and landlady !!

    Still have a lot of papers to sign, bank to see, organise moving, transfer contracts, change ....
    address .....painting...arranging...buying furniture !!!!


    A new like will soon stard, hopefully I will be for XMAS in my new home !!!!

    1. I liked Paris :) I was only there for a few hours though. But i would love to visit again :) I like France, ive been to the sout part of France and we rented a house with a pool and i loved it. We bought fresh bread and croissants and Pan Au chocolat everyday!

      That is great to hear :) A new fresh start, might be exactly what you need!

  2. I'm so excited to go on holiday this year to Austria , the first Holliday I feel truly 100% recovered ! Hotel breakfast is literally my fave

    1. Im so happy to hear that and i 150% agree with that.. infact if i could, i would eat a hotel breakfast everyday! When im older and rich, thats what im going to do :)