Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Monday, September 29, 2014
The secret of getting ahead is getting started
Something which i dont think i will ever learn to adjust to is my Monday schedule... too many lessons, too tightly crammed together. Each Monday i start my day (hopefully) with positivity, think that this Monday will be different. This Monday i wont feel exhausted at the end of the day, come home, too tired and hangry to speak to my family, and have to lock myself in my room for an hour just to get some food in me and to turn my mind off for a while.
But nope, its the same story each week. Monday is soo very tiring.
My perfect school day would be to start at around 10/11am and then finish at maybe 3/4pm.... What i love is having time in the morning to just do my own thing, then have a morning workout and come to school and its not super early. But an ok time and then i have a few lessons.
Because the fact is, i dont mind coming home late at say 5/6pm, because really... i dont do anything after school on weekdays. It might be a different story if i had a boyfriend, but with friends... we all have a tough schedule, long days in school and many have after school activities. So we usually meet during weekends when school isnt too tough or throwing assignments at us. So coming home late, and starting a little later wouldnt be so bad :)
Though thats just my opinion. Whats your opinion with work or school? Would you prefer to start early and finish a little earlier or to start later but finish a little later? :)
When i came home i quickly made myself a snack, quark mixed with funlight & my muslie mix. 2 eggs & 5 chocolate covered brazil nuts (its been a while, but i still love them!) & my beloved coffee!!!
Sometimes i find it so hard to believe that it was actually me who was so scared of eating. That eating nuts, or chocolate covered nuts for a snack would be impossible to imagine, especially not after sitting for 6 hours straight (almost). But now i love food, ALL types of food. Infact if i could i would go out to eat at a restaurant everyday, i would go to cafes for sandiwches and smoothies etc but dont have the money for it... but i know that once i start earning my own money pretty much 50% of it will go towards food and eating out and then 45% will go towards training clothes ;) (of course.. all of this after i have paid my bills etc :))
Remember CHANGE IS POSSIBLE!!! You just have to want it and work for it!! Dont just sit there and wish for change, or wish to be healthy and recovered. Its a change YOU have to make!