Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Sunday, September 7, 2014

My day

Hello :)
  I am sorry for not replying to comments at the moment - sounds strange but i feel i have a little to much to do at the moment, same goes for emails. But i will try my best and the same with keeping regular posts and updates. I'm going to try schedule posts for my upcoming busy week now, so if you have any topic ideas just let me know :)

This morning after brunch it was time to get some school work, i thought i would be super productive but really i wanted to do everything else but study. It also didn't help that the woman who we are changing apartment with was viewing out apartment so i had to have my door open and it was distracting to hear them talk!!!

After that my mum, step dad and I headed out to go look in shops for a computer - as ive mentioned before, i need a computer for school as the one i have is too heavy and unflexible to bring withme everyday to school. We first went to 3 different shops and i got to see a whole bunch of different computer, All so expensive!!! And then we came home, ate something small before we then left for town to look in 4 other shops and i think i found the computer i want!!! Though now its just to sit down and calculate how i will pay for it and hopefully i will get help from my mum as a birthday and Christmas gift :)
   Since then i haven't done much.... i feel i should be doing other things. I.e being productive with studying or writing blog posts or doing research, but i just dont feel like it ^_^ I mean its Sunday after all :)

Otherwise i am looking forward to Monday and back to school... to get out of the house and do and see other things apart from the 4 walls of my room, haha. I am also feeling alot better, back to my usual self :)
  Though i will continue with my resting tomorrow as well... not because i need it, but because i think it's good for me. I ofte say that if someone does alot of intense exercise for a long period of time then it can be good to take 3-5 days of rest. To really recover :)
  Its funny though how whenever i dont strength train its like i go back to feeling really weak and skinny again? Its not a feeling i like. I know it's all mental, because the truth is.... i haven't lost strength its just that im not using my strength either. Infact I'm using little energy really, haha... so i think that's why i get this weak feeling. 
I feel my thoughts are wandering at the moment, and can't find an appropriate ending to this post, so ill just leave it like this, :)

^^Though change it so the red is the eating part :)


  1. Is it possible to start eating too little under stress without having ED thoughts? I am recovered, but I think I experience this sometimes :(

    1. Yes its possible, thats what happens to me... i know that whenever im very stressed with school i lose my appetite and can end up losing weight as well. If you are only just recovered it can also trigger your ED thoughts again, thats what i found anyway. That at times of stress and when i ate less (unconsciously) sometimes my ED thoughts began coming back. But once i began eating more they went away.
      I now know that this happens so whenever i have alot in school and feel stressed with assignments and essays i always make sure to eat extra nuts and eat bigger portions and just make sure that i am eating more... even if that means eating something small every hour because i dont feel like eating big meals.
      If you are aware that you eat less during these times, then also find a way to cope and eat more :)