Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Friday, September 5, 2014

Morning Madness

These past 2 weeks where i've been back at school i feel like my thoughts have been very scattered, all over the place. Not to mention the forgetfulness which has been going on. One day its my pencil case, the next it's my journal, the following day i forget my gym shoes and only a few days later i forget my change of clothes for after the gym. Ohh, and of course all the times i've lost/forgotten my keys all over the school these past 2 weeks... like i wrote on Wednesday i had lost my keys (and im smart and have all my keys on one chain.. hahah). And guess where my keys were found? Hanging from the lock on my unlocked locker???
   Did i just walk away from my locker without locking, and leaving my keys hanging there? Apparently. hahaha, i don't even want to know what the teacher who found them thinks of me. But like i said, My thoughts are every where right now.

And this morning was no different. At first i couldn't figure out why the coffee machine wasn't working, but finally after 5 minutes i realise it wasn't plugged in -_- Though in my defense i was still half asleep! Only moments later i manage to spill half of my coffee on the mat walking to my room ^_^
   Then when im going to take my pills before breakfast, im going to put 2 in my mouth but end up putting them in my glass of water?Hahaha, not such a good idea.
   You would think i'm making this up, but then when i'm going to eat breakfast my first bite and i manage to spill it down my top? *What is happening?
  But after that... so far there doesn't seem to be any more slip ups however, now that i notice the time i realise that i am very pressed for time!!!!

I hope you all have a great day :)

&&1 more crisp bread with spread and chicken & some almonds!


  1. I just found this in my old diary and I don't know why but it really hit me:
    I thought why am I doing this to myself there are people out there who are fighting for their lives, there are people out there who can't eat because they don't have anything and here I am this spoiled brat who has food in excess and is angry at it because it might make her fat.

    I'm so happy I'm over this nightmare...

  2. What is spread? Sorry, it probably goes by a different name her. :)

    1. I think it's like butter but with only fats from plants. :-) check this.