Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Saturday, September 6, 2014

Life is for living

It saddens me to know that people spend more time worrying about calories than they do about their health. They spend more energy focusing on the negative thoughts and self hate than changing those negative thoughts to positive ones. That people pass by mirrors and think 101 self loathing, self hating thoughts instead of smiling at their reflection, being happy with themselves. People focus so much on their outside, on their appearance rather than their inner health and their mental health.  People worry more about having a flat stomach than eating the right amount of energy they need. All their thoughts go towards their self hate, their negative body image and the calories they have eaten and what they are still allowed to eat, instead of thinking about maybe sending a good morning text to their friend or complementing a family member on their outfit.
   Too much energy is spent focusing on the negative,worrying, anxiety instead of embracing or even noticing everything else in life.

In the end, life is more than calories, the number on the scale, whether you ate a cookie for breakfast or a salad for lunch. Whether you needed that extra rest day or did that extra 10 minutes on the treadmill. Those are things you wont remember 5 years from now.
  Do you want to be 80 years old and realise that for most of your life, you hated your body.... you saw wrinkles where there weren't any, you saw yourself as fat when really you just had a healthy body. You said no to dinners and events, no to adventures, new experiences and making new memories. Just because you had to know the calorie content of your food or because you couldn't let go of your routine.
  DO you want to look back on your life with regret? You only have one life, one body. Are you going to spend it with negative thoughts, self hate, self loathing, worrying about these insignificant things?
  When having to eat a slice of cake makes you skip going to social events, then you know you have a problem.

Life is not about eating 100 calories more one day or 200 calories less another day. Its not about the minutes spent running or the calories burnt during workouts. Its not even about having visible abs or a thigh gap.
  Life is about memories, experiences, adventures, friends, family... happiness and even sadness.

Take this message and really think about it. This message goes to everyone, whether someone is suffering from an eating disorder or not. Too much focus is on appearance, on looking a certain way... but happiness doesn't come from a body shape. If all your focus is on negative thoughts or looking a certain way, you won't ever truly feel happy.


  1. I wish I could think this way... I've already wasted 10 years but can't seem to change. How did you eventually do it? I want to recover but can't seem to.