Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Monday, September 15, 2014

Eating disorders aren't glamorous

In media eating disorders or other mental disorders can be portrayed as glamorous.  Something to almost strive for. Or they are something taboo. .. you pretend they don't exist.  Hide them away in a dark closet.  But that is not the case.

Eating disorders are not glamorous they are:

Hiding food in pockets,  hair or socks... anything to avoid eating.
Eroded teeth, puke stains and bad breathe from vomiting.
A stomach that doesn't function properly from all the damage and laxative abuse.
Muscle weakness.  Top tired to walk up stairs, to carry anything.
Hair that falls off your head, but also covers your whole body.
Dry skin, purple hands.
Scars on your body.
Tears strolling down your cheeks and crying yourself to sleep.
A growling stomach, wanting food but nit letting yourself satisfy your stomach.
Hoarding food. Eating until busting point.
Tube down your nose.
Needles in your arm/hand.
Nurses watching you pee or shower. Having to use the bathroom with the door open.
Collapsing/fainting in public places.
Throwing up in public bathrooms or even at friends houses.
Blisters on your hands and feet from too much exercise.
Eating a whole cake and still wanting more.
Lying to your family about where you are going or what you are doing.
Lying about your feelings.
Lying about what you have or haven't eaten.
Living in fear and isolation.
Pushing people away. Building walls around you.

Eating disorders are  a monster inside your head, controlling you. Making you do things you dont want to. Eating disorders are not glamorous, not something to strive after. Eating disorders are not a game and not something you should want to have.


  1. Random question, but do you always run/workout with music? Do you find it harder to go for a run without your iPod?

    1. When i run and do strength training i like to have music but when i walk or even do cardio at the gym i dont necessarily need it :) Not always when i run either... but when i strength train i lik eit.... it gives me that extra power, but also helps me to just focus on myself and not just look around and get distracted. Hhaah!
      Though i can of course do any type of workout without music, its just that if i get to choose i choose to have it :)

  2. It makes me so mad and sad when I see someone glorifying anorexia, EDs in general, depression etc. But I know I can't really stop them, not all of them. And a lot of those people who post pictures and quotes like that don't even have a mental illness. Yet they are promoting it. But even if one does have a mental illness, it doesn't make it any better. Why would anyone encourage others to ruin their bodys and minds? Why would anyone encourage others to ruin their life? It's so wrong! How did we get here? Oh and the media does a great job at that. This shouldn't be happening. People are dying, suffering, ruining their lives, yet there are some people encouraging this kind of behavior. Oh and all those horrible pro ana sites. It can be brainwashing. Especially if you're not getting enough food and you can't think straight. It's better not to read at all. I just want to let those people who make or visit pro ana site know that they don't have to do this, that they can recover and have a life. I want to tell them everything will be ok. And it will if you keep fighting.

  3. It was mentioned here, but the hair you get all over your body, does it go away or do I have to remove myself, I've always been hairy, but after the illness and malnutrition I'm like extra extra hairy! Thanks! Xx