Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Thursday, September 4, 2014

Cross country race

Good morning everyone :) Or evening, or afternoon? Maybe night :)

Today is the 5km cross country race with my school. The event which i really hate and each year just want to skip. Its funny how, I, the person who enjoys and is good at running would like to skip the day we run? Some of my friends who never run at all are more excited (not the right word?) for the run than I am. Though for me, its more about pressure and stress. I feel this pressure to perform well... to be the best. I am NOT competitive, thats the strange thing. Though i guess i am, in running anyway. But in other things i am not competitive at all, don't care if i win or lose.

Nerves all around me! But i'm just trying to remind myself that i can only do my best... Thats what my new shorts were bought for afterall!

I am also bringing Daisy with me. This is the first time im bringing her to one of these events, so not sure how she will behave. But all my friends who have dogs have alawys brought their dogs to all these events through out the years so I thought, i might as well!!

To destress and focus and even to not feel so stiff in my body (as well as tiring Daisy out) i went for a walk with her this morning. Nothing far... but far enough so she could do all her business, i could warm up my body and Daisy would atleast feel a little tired and not be as excited when she see's all the people and other dogs.

And then it was time for breakfast and also some meditiation and foam rolling maybe, just to not feel so stressed because really...What is there to stress about?
It's irrational thoughts, just like when your ED tells you to not eat or that eating some fried chicken will make you fat. That's not the case, just like now these are silly thoughts which i need to get rid of!

I hope you all have a lovely day and i will try reply to comments and emails later if i have time, though have some other things to do later in the day so not sure!


  1. Good luck wth the race. I'm sure you don't need it, but good luck anyway xx :)

  2. You'll be great ! Just remember you're doing this for yourself and forget about the world, it's your decision to feel like a winner in the end, no matter what happens and I'm sure you will. Enjoy the ride, and all the best.

  3. whats in your bowl?