Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Monday, September 8, 2014

After recovery

I can't imagine my life without this issue with food. It's foreign to me. How much should I think about food and exercise in order to be healthy? What do normal people think?

When you recover from an eating disorder you might have more focus on food. Though that doesn't have to be a bad thing. Infact after you've had an eating disorder you might be more aware of how and what you eat, but at the same time have a more balanced relationship with food. Because the truth is, there are many 'normal' people who do feel guilty after eating some cake or think alot about food or constantly on yo-yo diets. It feels like that has become the new normal.
  But after recovering - full recovering - from an eating disorder you should have balance with food. Be able to trust your body, or at least be able to eat all types of food and not feel guilty. But how often you choose to  eat certain foods that's up to the individual.
  But also the person might have more of a healthy diet, balanced and getting the right amount of energy (as Ive written before, many normal people actually don't eat as much as they could... they slow down their metabolism from eating so little without knowing it). So after an ED a person eats enough and regularly and also should eat enough carbs, protein, fat etc
Though how much is a normal amount to think about food and exercise, that is different for everyone. However the deciding factor, whether its an obsession or controlling thoughts is whether the thoughts consume you. Whether that is all you think about... if you feel alot of guilt before and after eating a meal or you constantly plan your food. If you cant just spontaneously eat something or eat a cookie you are offered etc. If your food has to be planned, you have to know the calories etc, then its not a healthy relationship. Just like with exercise... if the only thing you think about is exercise, if you cant rest or feel guilty for not working out, then its not a healthy relationship. But if its that you plan your workouts 30 minutes before you go to the gym (or do whatever exercise) or you cant wait until you get to workout etc that doesn't mean its unhealthy. Its about balance.
  If you feel that those types of thoughts consume you, then you should ask yourself WHY and what you can do to not let those thoughts control you.


  1. Thank you for answering my question! this helps :) when I started reading the question I was like 'wait this sounds so familiar it's creepy. Is someone reading my mind or something?' but the I realized it was my own words, ahaha! :)