Something I've realized a few months ago and still find amazing is that I can do whatever I want. Really. I can be whom ever I want, go wherever I want, do whatever I want. I have a choice. I am my own person. I don't have to be someone else to be happy. I can just be me. Because me is the best you can be. You will embrace it, make it special. We look up to those who are beautiful, wishing we had the life they have. But truth is a truly happy person loves oneself, doesn't need to prove oneself to anyone and, ideally, inspires people to do the same. Love and accept yourself. Unfortunately, many take this the wrong way and think they need to do the things those people do, look like them etc. in order to be happy like them. But it's actually very simple, to say that is, not to do. You need to stop comparing and start smiling, enjoying life, living. I can go for a run and actually feel good and energetic, not exhausted like I'm about to faint. I can have two slices of cake with milk before bed just because that's what I want. I can order salad in a restaurant because I love fresh cucumbers and tuna and nourishing my body. I can work towards my goals and feel good about myself while and after accomplishing them. I can lay in bed all day and do absolutely nothing productive or do task after task if that's what I want and chose to do. I chose. It's ME who choses. No one else. You CAN get rid of the voice, get your life back, live your life. You just have to fight for it. Put in effort, one day at a time. And if you trip or even fall just keep on going. It is so... so worth it. The other day I was in the car in the backseat and I just started smiling. Not because someone told a joke, not to fake my mood so my family thinks I'm ok, not to pose for a picture. I smiled because at that time I knew it is possible. I smiled because it felt so great. I smiled because I felt truly happy in that moment. It won't come all at once. It's not something that just happens. You have to fight for it. Fight the thoughts. You CAN do this. You do not have to wait or lose weight or get admitted to hospital. That's not fighting the thoughts. It's the voice controlling you. Your sickness controlling you. It's hard, very hard. But in the end you'll be happy. Remember what that felt like? Or maybe you've never felt that. Well, it feels awesome!!! Even though I'm not quite there yet I am fighting. I want to get there. Sometimes I want to go back. Just hide under the blankets, go through my routines, hide from the world, follow rules. But that's just making it WORSE. I am so glad I realized it was possible. That being healthy is possible. I CAN do this. YOU CAN do this. WE CAN do this. It's SO worth it. I can feel it. Believe me, I believe. Just imagine... you will be free...
Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: firstname.lastname@example.org
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Adivce from a reader - Sharing victories
This post comes from Olivia, sharing her advice and helpful words for recovery!