Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Spa day

Today after lunch my mum, my sister and I all got ready (not so much to get ready as there is no point dressing up or wearing make up :)) to go to the spa. Or, its not so much of a spa as a hot bath place. Ive been there several times with my mum and sister. The first time i didnt like it so much as i was too restless... i felt i couldnt relax and just lie still. But ive learned to like it... though i might have liked it extra much today because i felt so physically and mentally tired that all i wanted was to lie/sit all day. And to do it in warm water isnt so bad :)
  Though i am warm all the time (if you wonder why im always in a sports bra and shorts in photos... thats why!) so the hot baths just made me overheated... i felt lke i was bubbling up from the inside. So had to take loads of cold showers and also sat on the edge most of the time with one foot in... that was the perfect way for me to sit. And i found it super relaxing... to just sit and stare out at the water and trees. To think but at the same time just relax.
    Its like my body became so much heavier... lifting my legs up the stairs was tough, my whole body being pulled down with gravity. Even standing became hard as my muscles and bones just seemed to turn to jelly.

There is free fruit there so we went to havea  fruit pause and i loaded up on fruit (3 times the picture!). And then we went back to the water. And later it was dinner where we all ate sushi, and i took a 9 piece sushi!!! I absaloutly love it, one of my favourite dishes :) Though actually i wish sushi with quinoa could be found as believe it or not, that is delicious!!! :)


Then we went back for some more bathing - though i went to eat some more fruit first! And then we slowly dragged ourselves out of the water, got dressed and into the car!!!

Such a perfect relaxing day. Much needed :)  Its funny how, i haveny done much today just lain in water but that makes you so tired. Its like you just relax sooo much that any physical activity becomes hard ;) So now its time for sleep and i know i will wake up with 150% energy after todays relaxing day!


  1. Dear izzy,
    i did not manage to answer your earlier post about who is reading your blog, but yes, i am one of your daily readers.

    i found your blog about two months ago or so and i love it. i think you are wonderful and very inspiring and you always seem like a very kind and lovely person. on top of that you are really pretty.

    giving a short Info on myself, i am 27 and from germany. i suffer from disordered eating habits since i was about 18..?i am not exactly sure when it all started, i have never been in treatment or diagnosticised, but there were times i was barely eating at all and times when i was eating a little more but overexercising. overall i always had these thoughts in my head that i was too fat and eating too much.. Although People would tell me how slim i was.

    I am still not completely healthy nowadays, but your blog gives me a Lot of strength and i am trying my Best to not let my body and my soul down.

    i wish you all the Best, izzy. keep going and stay strong... You are great.
    lots of love

  2. You should post weekly food diaries:)