Then we went for a short walk, continuing to talk...... Im not going to say much more apart from that i am an awkward person and that you can tell i havent been in a relationship before (ok once, when i was 12... but does that even count?)
However, we could laugh at my awkwardness anyway and i havent scared him off, so i guess thats a good thing.
However, now that i am in an almost relationship? i almost feel a little anxious...like what do you do? how do you behave? is this what i want? do i like this guy? etc etc
I am one of those people who can feel like no one likes me... like sometimes i ask myself do my friends actually like me, or do they just hang out with me because they feel sorry for me? Silly questions really, but yes... I have struggled with low self esteem for years and even if its much better, i have my days where i get doubts and insecurities.
To me, as ive never really had a relationship before its all new and exciting, but at the same time scary. I dont even know what i want myself... whether i want something serious or just something fun for now... I feel so confused but at the same time excited, but also a little anxious.
Though from what i understand, most of these feelings and thoughts are normal... its just part of life and growing up. And until you meet the right person, where it just clicks you might always feel a little undecided?
All in all, i had a great evening!!! :)