Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Realising that people like me for me
All my life something I've had hard to accept or even realise is that people like me for me.
I can often get thoughts of people just hang out with me because they feel sorry for me. Or i feel that i annoy everyone, just being me.... where I get these thoughts from, I don't know. But yes, I have always had low self esteem and it's something I still work with. These thoughts aren't so often anymore as my relationships get stronger with my friends and family. But at the same time I find it hard to believe that people like me for me... or even think I look good. And this is the contradictory thing, Because i have learnt to love myself. I like the way i look and i like who i am, in general. But i still find it hard to believe that someone else could like me.
This is something I began talking to my sister about the previous day when I was getting ready to go....
The thoughts are silly really. I mean if people don't like you, then they wouldn't keep in contact with you and you would at least get some hint that the person didn't like you or wasn't interested. But still the thoughts creep up sometimes, especially if i ever feel alone or outside of my circle of friends. And this happens to everyone, everyone has times when they feel more alone or like suddenly they dont really click with their friends. That doesnt mean that suddenly your friends hate you.
I know I'm not alone with these types of thoughts that's why I'm writing this post. Because if you share these types of thoughts, thinking that nobody likes you... that's not true. But you have to learn to like yourself first.To be happy with You, and know that you are ok just the way you are!! People DO like you, even if you can feel alone at times, know that you arent.
You (and I included) need to change those types of thoughts. Know that people hang out with us, call us or message us because they care, they want to hear from you. Want to hear your answer to a question and want you to follow with on activitise. Convincing yourself that they are just hanging out with you because or because they feel sorry for you will just make you pull yourself away and feel even more lonely and get even more of these thoughts.
Its hard to know what anybody is thinking... some people do have fake friends, but you need to learn to distinguish beteween the people who are real and the people who are fake. The ones you can trust and the ones you cant.
But something i have learnt from experience is that it doesnt help to sit around and worry and stress over what others are thinking... Because unless you ask and the person answers honestly, you wont ever know what anybody else is thinking.