Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, August 25, 2014

Life is about balance

At the moment i am in a real chocolate phase!! I usually go through phases where sometimes all i want to eat is oatmeal, other times eggs. Sometimes i have periods where i dont eat choclate for 2-3 weeks (shocking, i know!!!) and then there are periods like now, when im craving chocolate all the time.

And im not someone to deny myself my cravings. Infact i know that these cravings mean something, that my body is low in energy. When im in school, even if its not any physical work its alot of mental work but also my days are SO much longer. School 8-4 most days. My snacks arent as big or as regular as during my summer holiday and i think its just a shock to my body. I dont feel tired though, not physically or mentally... but my body is craving for these high energy foods.

I decided to buy exactly what i was craving which was the creamy biscuit chocolate It is SOOO delicious, infact, i think its my favourite chocolate :) Chocolate covered nuts and salted nuts (standard!) and watermelon :) && some tea on the side for extra luxery :)

When i was in the shop picking up my things there were 2 small children behind me and they were saying, Thats candy. We're not allowed to eat that if its not on Saturday. ..... Well children, thats the luxery of being adult isnt, it? Not having others tell you when and what you can eat, but also having your own money to buy the food you do want to eat!!

I want to remind you all that i promote healthy and balance, maybe not to eat exactly like me. But to know that its OK to listen to your cravings, that eating that chocolate today was fine. Taking dessert after lunch is ok... if you want soemthing sweet go get it :)


  1. Do you eat all this alone? It looks big or when did you eat your last meal? Was it many time ago or can you it so many, because of your sport?
    Sry for this questions, but i am in a recovery and hope to can eat so many as you eat :))

    1. I didnt eat all of it ;);) I ate 3 rows of the chocolate bar and about half of the bowl of nuts and a few watermelon slices :) I take a photo of it all because i dont know how much im going to eat, but also because it looks better. :)
      I ate that 'snack' at c.a 6pm and i had had a small lunch at 12.30pm (due to my time schedule i only get about 20 minutes to get my food and eat before my next class starts, so not alot of time to eat enough) and i had had 2 fruits at around 4pm.
      And i ate dinner at around 8.30 pm :)

      I just listen to my body and cravings, thats whats important to me. Not how much i eat or when i eat!

  2. I hope one day I can follow your example. I love your attitude to food and exercise

    1. Hahah, thank you :) Thats what i hope to promote with my blog. Not only eating chocolate, but also not only eating salad. But a mix of the two. And the same with exercise :)

  3. Hi Izzy, could you please tell me roughly how many calories you ate during recovery treatment. I am doing day treatment and all of the food is making me feel sick - it just seems so much.

    1. I ate about 3500 per day at the end of my recovery... but i think i started with around 1500-2000 and from there kept increasing. (had to drink 3 supplement drinks as well as my meal plan to make sure i was getting enough energy).
      I know it may seem like alot and tough to eat it all, but you do need lots of energy in recovery. So follow the plan :)