Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Friday, August 8, 2014

I promote a healthy life

Something which i think is important to mention on my blog is that I promote a healthy life. Though healthy is different for everyone, and this is important to remember.

It can be easy to look at me and think...Ohh she's still slim, she exercises and eats a certain.... I have to do that as well.

But lets make one thing clear... the way i eat is not something weird or strange. Not for me or my family anyway. I eat what i want, what im craving and what we have at home. I dont make any weird demands that we have to have low fat or no sugar or vegan etc... If i want something like stevia, protein powder, bcaas etc i have to buy that myself but everything else i eat... my parents buy that as they eat it as well. So there is nothing strange with that.

And for exercise... No, you dont have to exercise after you've recovered. Not everyone likes exercise. Dont think that you have to exercise jsut to stay slim, or just so that you dont gain fat etc Thats NOT a healthy mindset if you force yourself to do workouts you hate just so that you dont gain fat.
   And i also want to make it clear that i began exercising when i was 2-3 kg away from my goal weight. I wasnt allowed ANY exercise before that. And it was still minimal amounts in  the beginnning. Since then, i took charge over my own workouts. Listened to my body, found a balance and now workout what i enjoy and what i want to do. No rules, musts or compensation. Just enjoyment.
Also... dont think i want to look like her. She's still so slim... i will just be fat when i recover. That is NOT true. We are all different. We have different body shapes and sizes. For me the way i look does come from hard work... if i wasnt strength training i would still be super skinny, infact i would most probably still be underweight and struggling with my weight. Strength training helps me feel stronger, look stronger and helps keep my weight up. That is how my body is = naturally skinny.
    But also you WONT be fat when you recover... and so what if you have fat. We all HAVE and NEED fat on our bodies. But you will be a healthy weight... your body will find its healthy set point whether thats X kilo or Y kilo, dont try to control that.

I promote healthy living... a healthy body and healthy mindset. But what health means and is to you... thats different from person to person. Some people need to cut down on sugar to be healthy, others need more cookies and cream to help maintain their weight. Others need to avoid gluten whilst others enjoy their daily bread. Some prefer dancing, others swimming, others yoga. Some just do P.E in school and others take walks with their dogs. I am not saying that one lifestyle is better than the other or that you have to be/act in a certain way to be healthy. Not everyone eats the same for optimal health. Not everyone does the same exercise or has the same lifestyle, but are still equally as healthy.
   Focus on what health means to YOU. What makes YOU healthy and happy. THAT is what i promote.


  1. Hi I'm a long time lurker of your blog. I was just wondering your opinion on something..... I have been offered day care for my anorexia as I am not managing as an outpatient but I don't want to go as I suffer badly from social anxiety and the centre is 2 hours each way for me. What would you do? They are threatening sectioning me if I don't start gaining weight. I really need some advice.

    Thank you

    1. Hmmm.... i think it can be good ot go, to get the care you need but also to face your social anxiety. However, 2 hours seems a bit extreme. Do you think you could fix in someway that you get a ride everyday? Or that there is someone who can pick you up..... otherwise, it might actually be easier for you to be an inpatient. Then you dont have to travel 4 hours everyday but also you get the right support and care. That you do gain weight and do the right thing. I know being an inpatient or even day patient is tough but it also HELPS, which is the most important. If i were you then i would say yes to the treatment. If you cant do it at home... but maybe think about being an inpatient instead of the long commute everyday.

  2. This may sound a little rough but I believe that I read somewhere that people with CF generally need more calories as their body is working overtime...and the body needs at least 2500-3000 to maintain weight. Maybe that should be mentioned at least once in a while as that is one of the many reasons you fortunately can eat more because some ppl couldn't handle so much food even with all that exercise and not gain...
    Please don't get this comment wrong as I read your blog for 2yrs now and I love it...just wanted to mention it :)

    1. Yes i know that and have mentioned it several times... hence why i say not to follow what i eat or my old meal plans as they were based for me. And yes, because i have CF is why i can eat 100-200g nuts in a day & the rest of my food intake and not gain weight. I do mention that, but i dont count calories so really i dont even know how much i eat everyday... whether its more than other people or not? I dont compare either.
      But it is a good point, maybe i should mention it more often. But i dont want to just say that why i need to eat alot is because of my CF, because it isnt just that. because i exercise i need alot as well.

  3. Hi! I read before that you have dreams to be a health coach or PT in the future and thats great!
    I was wondering, are you familiar with the general recommendations for nutrition in Sweden (och de andra nordiska länderna)?
    How do you feel about the guidelines and amounts potato, whole grain pasta, rice and bread in your daily diet? (and also guidelines for the other food groups)
    As a health coach do you see yourself teaching to follow the general guidelines or your own way?

    If i sounded rude that was not the meaning :) I myself eat quite like you and your family and I am also interested in nutrition.

    P.S. Jag är från Finland :)