Life without Anorexia

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'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

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Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Cravings

Today i have spent my day out in town doing several things and looking in shops as there are a few things i need to get... but no luck. They either didnt have my size, wasnt in stock, i couldnt find the shop, they didnt sell it anymore etc etc
  I also had two random people walk after me singing (at different times) and also had some random guy come up to me and ask if i wanted to be his girlfriend.... My answer was a no, and i walked away. (Why cant guys i like ask me this?!!)

I also realised that 3 things i always think when im out in town 1) i need to pee (where is the nearest bathroom?) 2) i hate town and 3) i cant breathe.... There is something about the city, but i can never breathe properly... or maybe im just walking too fast? who knows.

On the bus on the way home i saw one of my old case managers... and she was a Capital B - Bitch. Even my mum disliked her. She was rude, mean and careless towards me. She didnt listen to me or my mum at all.. she treated me like an animal and had no respect for me. She made me cry countless numbers of times, my mum argued with her and tried to get me a new case manager but that never happend and my mum even called her a bitch once... heh heh.
  So seeing her on the bus made me want get off.... but instead, i stared down on my mobile screen and pretended to not notice her, but saw her staring at me in the corner of my eye....

Since then ive tried replying to emails but ended up with a headache so had to stop. And then i got cravings for white chocolate licquorice. I ate a snack thinking it would go over... but nope, the cravings got more intense so i went down to the shop and i thought, im going to buy just what i want. Uusally when i buy trail mix i go a bit over the top and buy like 300g+... just take a bit of everything and Yes, i do then eat all of it when i come home. But actually, i dont need to buy the whole sortiment just because i can. So i just take a few pieces of what i wanted and it became like 150g or something? And that was the perfect amount... enough to stop the cravings but not give me a stomach pain from eating too much, or a sugar high ;) hahaha
 Yum. Yum. Yum!!! I could seriously eat chocolate covered nuts everyday :) :)



Since then my headache has gotten worse so ive just lain in bed and now im about to prepare a later dinner as i need to get something else into me....

Hope you've had a good day :) :) What have you done today`?

4 comments:

  1. You are the reason I am now also addicted to chocolate covered nuts and dried fruits! But I thank you for this (; If you still have a headache when you read this, try putting a bit of peppermint oil on your temples if you have any. It works really well! Oh yeah, I forgot to ask, did you try the Paw Paw ointment I sent you? I love that stuff!

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    1. hahaha :) no i havent tried that yet, i had forgotten about it... the same with vegemite. I do need to try it though, i cant be too quick to judge!! haha :)

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  2. What's in the Bowl?:) looks so yummy!!

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    1. Its quark and cottage cheese mixed with coconut milk & warm strawberries :) and some raisins as well :)

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