Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Monday, August 25, 2014

Benefits of meditation

5 Benefits Of A 10-Minute Meditation Practice

1. Stress
Meditation is a wonderful way to reduce stress. Not only does the practice of meditating gives you some much-needed “down time” to rest physically, mentally, and emotionally, but it also directly impacts your entire nervous system by reducing your body’s production of stress-related chemicals such as cortisol. Meditation decreases oxygen consumption, heart rate, respiratory rate, and blood pressure, and increases the intensity of alpha, theta, and delta brain waves, which increase the relaxation response.
2. Pain
There is a significant body of research work demonstrating that meditation can reduce chronic pain. In astudy published in the Journal of Behavioral Medicine, patients suffering from backache, chronic migraine and tension headaches were able to decrease their pain medication and some patients were even able stop their pain medication with a consistent meditation practice.  
3. Anxiety 
A 2009 study in the Journal of Clinical Psychology found that meditation decreased anxiety and increased hope in its participants. A separate study showed that cancer patients who practiced meditation for as little as seven weeks were significantly less depressed and anxious than their counterparts who did not meditate.
4. Cardiovascular disease
study in the Archives of Internal Medicine followed patients with coronary heart disease who instituted a meditation practice for 16 weeks. Patients’ blood pressure and heart rate variability improved compared to a control group. In another study, researchers studying the effect of meditation on atherosclerosis reported that those who had practiced meditation for six to nine months had an 11% decrease in the risk of heart attack and up to a 15% decrease in the risk of stroke.
study at the University of Minnesota showed patients with primary chronic insomnia who followed a three-month meditation program at home significantly improved their ability to fall asleep and stay asleep.
So what are you waiting for? Start your day with a 10-minute meditation practice, or schedule it into your day. It’s powerful, effective and free! 
Article by Dr. Alejandra Carrasco

Image Source: FitSugar


  1. Hey, I know this is completely irrelevant to your post, but I'm kind of dealing with an issue. I used to be anorexic when i was like 12 and now I'm like 16, but anyways when i gained the weight back I was like the heaviest I had ever been in my life, so this year I decided to lose some of the weight, but I did it by barely eating anything 2 days and then eating whatever the third and i ended up losing like 15 pounds and i was at 100 pounds, which is a healthy weight for my height. (I'm 5ft tall). So I maintained between 100-103 for like most of the year, but for some reason this summer like in the past three weeks I managed to gain weight and now I'm between 104-106 pounds and I feel very sad and uncomfortable with myself. I've been working out, but I admit I've been eating unhealthy. So I just feel terrible about myself and I'm crying and I don't know what to do. I want to get back to 100 pounds. I don't know if I should eat or like if i should just cut back on food. I feel so fat and ashamed of gaining weight and school starts in like a week so I'm miserable. I don't know what to do and I keep beating myself up. And last night i went for a long walk and was hungry after but didn't eat because i ate a lot that day, so i woke up today starving and ate so much and i think i exceeded my calorie limit, but I'm hunger now so i dont know if i should eat or just wait until tomorrow. i'm so confused and I feel terrible :(

    1. What you should ask yourself and think about is WHY is it so important to weigh 100? Its just a number... its YOU who defines when you are happy with yourself. Trust me, weighing a few pounds less or weighing 100lbs WONT make you happier. You need to focus on your mental health. Not punish yourself and starve yourself just because you arent happy with your body. When you are hungry, you need to eat.
      If youve been eating lots of junk food, then maybe try to find a balance with the junk food... not over eat it. Just eat it in moderation.
      But if you have gained weight for an unknown reason then try to figure out why, if im honest 2-3kg weight gain is NOTHING to panic about. That can be hormones, stress, water, grown in height, because you're older etc You are still so young and still growing, soYES, you're weight will fluctuate and trying to keep yourself at 100lbs isnt going to work.
      Instead focus on other things... dont use starvation as punishment. Your body NEEDs food. So what if you ate alot, you still need to eat the rest of the day... if i were to eat 200g peanut butter at 8am in the morning, i would still eat the rest of my meals like normal. If you are hungry, then eat.
      You need to focus on body love and acceptance, not weight loss. That wont solve your problems. Its tough, but trying to love your body is the most important. Changing your body wont make you any happier.

    2. Thank you so much. It just makes me really sad, like it's not the fact that 100 pounds looked good or anything, but i just felt really good and comfortable. And now i just feel really uncomfortable in my skin and it feels bleh. Since i feel really crappy i feel like less motivated to workout and be healthy. but thank you so much, like i legit have no one to talk about these things with which makes me feel worse. But, I just don't really know how to pick myself up again and keep going and being healthy. Like, where to I start?

    3. I think the first thing you should do is forget about the scale and your weight for a while. Dont weigh yourself, instead focus on being happy. Do things which make you happy.... try to find motivation to workout again (if thats what you like doing). Maybe set up a goal with your exercise this can get you motivated again. Do other things as well, maybe meet friends, go to cafes, go for walks, watch films, have spa days etc
      Set up small post it notes around the house where it says things like 'im perfect just the way i am' or 'i dont need to change' etc
      Try to laugh or smile once a day... dont focus all your energy on hating yourself and wanting to lose weight.
      Instead, find a balance diet. Dont restrict yourself, dont over eat, dont only eat junk food and dont only eat vegetables. But find balance.... i think when you feel that you start eating better and more balanced then you should feel better as well.
      You also said that you lost the weight before by an unhealthy method. Well it could be that you have ruined your metabolism or its slowed down and youäve been undereating and over exercising so now your body is almost protesting and making you gain weight.
      So think about that... be honest with yourself, how much are you actually eating? Because if you undereat its easy to end up binging on junk food.