Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Friday, August 29, 2014

Ask yourself Why?

Something which i dont think enough people do is to ask themselves Why they do something.

Many people live lives they hate, doing things they hate but never daring to change. They follow the crowd or settle for less than they deserve. They never question why they do things or why they dont change their situation to something better.

Something which i want You, all of my readers to start asking yourself is Why do you do certain things?

WHY did you skip your lunch?
WHY did you not eat pasta for dinner and only salad?
WHY did you force yourself to go out and run when you didnt want to?
WHY can you only eat X calories?
WHY can you not weigh more than x kilo?
WHY can you not eat cake?
WHY do you have to get up at 6am even when you have the chance to sleep in?
WHY do you do those 100 sit ups and 100 squats before bed?
WHY do you always critisize and bring yourself down ?

Sit down and think about, why you do the things you do`? What result is it that you are after? What are your goals or aims?

I very often ask myself the question of Why i do the things i do. This is what makes me so happy, because i do the things i want to do, that make me happy. I dont force myself to go out and run if i dont want to. I dont not eat cakes because i think i cant. I make choices based on my goals on what i want, not just beacuse everyone else is following a diet. If everyone else was wearing black and i wanted to wear pink i would choose to wear pink, not black just because everyone else was. And its important to know YOUR choices and to know WHY you do the things you do.


  1. Good morning Izzy! (Here its 11:20 pm haha!) I should think about this. It's hard to understand why i do/did certain things. Also it seems so hard to achieve balance for me. And something that's difficult is knowing what you want/like/enjoy. Some things you just know (for example I've never liked seafood and still don't. No offense to anyone who does :)) But a lot of times I don't know why I'm going for a run or why I chose to drink black coffee. I like to think it's because I love running and black coffee. But what if I actually hate it. Now that I think about it I do LOVE running but sometimes I just don't feel like going for a run. And before I'd run with no energy and hate doing it. Black coffee I truly enjoy but I also like coffee with milk. I like both. But like with running I would only drink it black because it has less calories. So what I'm trying to say is both black coffee and coffee with milk (just an example it could be anything) are a part of my life and something I enjoy. It's just that I have trouble knowing why I chose black coffee or to exercise one day. Most of the time it's because I want to. But idk.
    Sorry if this is confusing :)
    Have a great day!

    1. Slightly confusing, but i think i know what you mean :) Like somethings we do, we really dont know why.... but sometimes it can be good to ask yourself why. Like some things you do purely out of routine... like i always check the mirror before i leave the house even if i looked in the mirror 5 minutes ago...
      And with running and exercise, not everyday are you super excited to workout but you know you will enjoy it so do it anyway. Though that doesnt have to be a compulsion... compared to someone who forces themselves to exercise (or do soemthing else) but actually hates doing it.
      Hope you have a great day as well :)

  2. I agree with this!! My psychologist once told me "for who and for what are you doing this??" and it really made me think... When I thought about it more, I realized I was doing it for myself so I could feel better about who I am... Although in fact I just made my life harder!! :( i feel the same as you Olivia :) it is difficult to know why we do things... Is it really because it makes us happy?? Or is that the ED talking?? :/

    1. I think knowing why we do things is confusing for everybody. Some people dont actually want to ask themselves the question because they know the answer but dont want to admit it. Because if they admit they do things they dont like just because, that means that they know they have to change. Even if change is scary it can be good... it gets you more focused on happniess and your goals rather than routines and comfortableness!

    2. Very true!! Aww, It's nice to know I'm not the only one :)