Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Thursday, July 31, 2014

Who reads my blog?

I asked this question on my blog 2 years ago or so and got many comments which i loved, i got to know more of who reads my blog which is always super fun. But readers come and go... but im still here (I like to compare myself to a teacher, the students stay for a while, then they move on they've got the information they need. Some come back to say hi, but new students come to replace the old.... thats sort of how i see my blog and readers :) Though i wish i could get to know you all :))

So now im asking again Who reads my blog? I.e who are you?
 Ok this is getting deep, i mean... it would take a while to actually figure out who you are on a deep, psychological level. What i mean more is...

Where are you from?
Age group
Are you suffering from an ED? Have suffered? Knows someone who suffers? Or maybe just like my blog... thats cool too ;)

How long have you read my blog?
 How did you find it?

And if you want to leave any random information about yourself as you all know pretty much everything about me ;) Apart from my age... heh heh, got to keep some type of mystery!!! :) Though many have figured out my age!

And if you have any advice or constructive critisizm feel free to share ;)

Remember you can still be anonymous and you dont have to answer all the questions, it would just be cool to know more about my readers :)


  1. I'm Ryley. I live in Canada and am recovering from an ed. I found your blog when I was struggling at my worst. It was such an amazing thing to find :)

  2. I'm Katie (or Kate) and I'm a 19-year-old university student from the USA. I have been suffering from anorexia and EDNOS since 2007, but I am making great progress in my recovery and I am getting closer and closer to health with each day. I have been reading your blog for a few months and I absolutely love it. Words can't describe how much your posts have helped me and inspired me to kickstart my own recovery and continue carrying on when things get difficult. I don't remember exactly how I found it originally, but I'm so thankful that I did!

  3. My name is Karly and I am a 19 year old Australian girl. I have been reading your blog for about 12 months now and I can honestly say that you have made more of a difference (positively) to my anorexic recovery than anyone or anything ever has.

    Every step that I have taken towards recovering from anorexia has been inspired by you. Without your inspiration I don't know if I would have the strength to carry on each day and fight towards becoming fully recovered.

    So thanks Izzy, no matter what happens always remember you are changing peoples lives and you should be so proud of who you are and what you have achieved. <3

  4. But Izzy, you already know me througout! Well, at least I've told you all.. Heh xd

    But just fyi:
    > I'm hoping to study languages, writing or some form of verbalic stuff in the future. I sometimes fantasize about a career as a voice actress or a singer even, but I'm also very keen on psychology, arts, singing and millions of quite surprising things. I know that my future job will associate with creative use of words though.
    > I have a terrible fixation towards watches. I hate them. I hate its word in every language. In my opinion, they're all desperately ugly and if I for some reason fall in love with a man that wears one, you bet there's going to be manipulation and blackmail! He's not going to wear it for long..

    And yes, I've had this since kindergarten. No idea where it came from.
    > I sometimes dream of having a pet cockatoo, parrot or other bird, but I know that in a week I would be making accessories out of it.

    > I won't learn history or geography. Even if some document would create some tiny interest towards them, the school books still remain practically written in Gibberish.

    > I wish being an online grammar nazi was a job. We all need those guys sometimes.

    > I know practically everything that I can about Michael Jackson. I hadn't really heard of him before his death, but when it happened, I immediately felt for him and got keen. The overwhelming adore lasted for about two years, which I used for enthusiastic research and lyric-learning. Then I suddenly ended the crying during listening to his sensitive songs and felt guilt for that for almost a year, but now I just appreciate all of those good things he has taught for me about life. He was the one that first started my journey into myself, a basis to my identity, especially the identity of that 11-year-old silent rebellion that I loved to be. I actually sent two anniversary cards to his grave in L.A. Obviously I've chilled now and barely listen to his songs anymore (though I love them!), but he'll always be my first celebrity crush.

    > I've gone to dancing lessons since I was 4 or 5. Once a week, with summer breaks.

    1. But wait, there's more!
      > If I had to describe myself in three words, I wouldn't. If I tried, falling for such useless demands that probably don't even have serious terms would leave me up with only one word: shoe sole

      > Half of my organs fail every time I hear someone explain obvious things (like things on TV that just happened right before my eyes just as well as theirs) out loud. At least when the same person keeps on doing that.

      > I neither want any vain comments about the movie I'm watching from my company. That's why I'd rather go to thw cinema by myself.

      > Out of the Winnie the Pooh characters, I relate to Tigger and Rabbit the most. Donald Duck is my soulmate.

      > I can't cook. The end.

      > The more looneytoons a piece of clothing is (in the limits of what I've seen), the more comfortable I feel in it in public. My cozy clothes for cocooning, however, are plain as soil.

      > I like to see things from every part-taker's point of view. This has caused frustration in the people who try to dig supporting empathy out of me.

      > I love rainy city centers at night.

  5. I'm from Norway, 16 years old, have had some kind of eating disorder. I was diagnosed with anorexia but I didn't really talk to anyone about my thoughts on food, so they just diagnosed me by my appearence apparently... I would rather just call it "an eating disorder" because I don't find the criteria fitting for my situation. I was declared healthy from anorexia a year ago, but how does that really matter when I didn't get any help with my actual eating disorder? I am not really good with methaphors, but to describe this, I would say "Imgine that you broke your leg. You go into the hospital and you are crying. The people who meets you there, the doctors, don't know that you broke your leg, but they see you crying. They have seen people with a bruise on their arm cry previously, so they jump to the conclution that you have a bruise on your arm (allthough your arm is perfectly fine). They put a band aid on your arm. Later on, the doctors believe they have fixed you. They send you out of the hospital thinking they helped you with your little problem. But as you step out of that hospital door you fall over because: they only fixed a nonexisting problem, your leg is still broken and now you have to walk around with a broken leg. All this time has been wasted for nothing"
    I believe I am healthy from the eating disorder I actually had, now. I was noticed by a very kind female teacher at school whom I started having regular conversations with and she really listened to me and that helped me a lot. I don't remember how I found your blog, but I'm pretty sure it was just a random click ;) Your blog has helped me alot, giver me inspiration and motivation, but it can trigger me sometimes. But then I just have to remember that there isn't really any logical reason to why I am triggered, and then it just passes :)) I really like your blog and I'm sure it helps many other people other than me. And something else that I find kind of strange is that I think about something, for instance a little while back I thought about how I don't need these rules in my life, these rules that are entirely made up by myself. I don't want to feel like I have to do something, I wanna take random decisions, try out different things, etc. And I persuaded myself to do something I have been a little scared to approach. And then a little later, I read your blog and finds a new post about that exact same topic! And I was on holiday and went cayacing, and when I come home, I find a post where you write thet you have been paddling too! I mean, what is this? The first time it was just cool, but the second time I was a tiny bit freaked out! Haha <3

  6. I'm from Canada (eh) and i'm a teenager. I've had an ED for about 4 or 5 years but was anorexic for 1. I've been in recovery for a full year now and have been reading your blog for 1 year as well!

    1. Hey I Iive in Canada too... I thought I was the only one! :P

    2. Ya! another Canadian! Thought I was the only one, too ^_^

  7. I'm from Germany and I'm 19 years old. I had an ED for a few years (I'm healthy now) and I have read your blog for I think almost 2 years.

  8. I'm a young teenager (not willing to specify, sorry aha), and live in England. I'm in the beginnings on recovery from Anorexia and love your blog.
    I found your blog when I was online one day and looking for ways to continue living with hope, and was at the worst point of my eating disorder ever. I have been reading your blog for 5 to 6 months now, and it is the best decision I have ever made.
    I believe that if I never found your blog, I would still be losing weight and most certainly be in hospital. This blog has been my major motivation to try recovery, and you have helped me the whole way along. Just your positivity and advice has given me strength to continue, and you are my inspiration to get through this disorder. :) You have changed my life in such a good way, and I will be forever thankful for that. <3
    Anyway, on a quick side note, I believe you are doing something wonderful here. Your an amazing person, Izzy. :)

  9. Hi! I´m 23, and been diagnosed with anorexia for 4 years, and been in recovery since. Ups and downs and I´m still underweight, struggling and exercise junkie. I´ve been following you for 6 moths and found the blog when desperately tried to find motivation. You are such an inspiration, thanks!

    P.S. Why don´t you try to bake some bagels of your own? :) And I also checked out MyProtein website and omg there was a looot of products and flavors! How to choose, in case wanted to start to use additional protein for exercise at some point?

  10. I'm Melanie, 18 years old and from Australia. I have had an eating disorder for 4 years, mainly anorexia (basically recovered), however at the moment I am struggling with a binge eating disorder. My main mental illnesses though are depression, anxiety and OCD. My eating disorder could be considered a symptom of my mental health problems I have had since primary school. I have read your blog for a long time (I think nearly 3 years). I love you so much; you are such an inspiration. I am usually isolated by my mental illness but you make me feel hope for my future. I check your blog every single morning. You don't have to change a thing. Write what you want to xxxx

  11. -I'm from the USA
    -I'm 15
    -I had full blown anorexia, bulimia, and over exercising tendencies 2 years ago. I recovered, but now i'm starting to struggle again, as i am still underweight
    -About a year and a half:)

    -The interwebs:)

  12. I'm 16, from the uk, I had anorexia, lowest weight was 6st5lbs, but now I do weight training, I'm looking better and I refuse to know what my weight is, and could not have recovered quite as well if not for this blog which I found during hard times earlier on this year! The only problem is... I've read everything, haha, now I just wait for more posts! Thanks izzy!

  13. Hi Izzy!
    Some of this I've said before, but I'll say it anyway;)
    I am half american, half russian, was born inUS but live in Russia for now. I'm 15-19. I think I know your age, Izzy, but don't worry, I won't. Have ED. I've been reading your blog for 3-4 months. How I found it? I was looking for the complete opposite actually. But what I really wanted&needed was your blog. Random facts:
    I have three siblings and am second.
    I don't use lol or omg. It drives me crazy when people use it in real life instead of saying the whole word. No offense to anyone, that's just what I am. I'll still be friends with someone if I like them.
    I am a sensitive person and can cry easily. But I only cry when I'm alone. I don't cry during movies that much though.
    I love it when people are polite enough to say 'hi' or something before approaching you instead of just jumping into a conversation. Polite, but also I like it when a person is open and honest, not afraid to be herself/himself and a little crazy.
    When I was a kid I'd cry&laugh at the same time uncontrollably because I was exhausted. I still get this at times.
    I don't like horror films&scary/spooky rides. I've only seen one horror film.
    I have a girl jack russel terrier.
    I'd love to visit Sweden, India, Denmark and Georgia. But Sweden the most ;)
    I loove receiving packaged mail. But that happened no more than twice I think :(
    I love dogs and raccoons! When I live on my own I'll definitely have a dog or two, or three!
    I like writing, but don't think I'm that good at it.
    I've been thinking of becoming a nutritionist, as I am very interested in nutrition. But I don't think I could help people with ED, because it's a huge responsibility and it breaks my heart when I see other people suffering.
    I've been thinking of making a blog, but am hesitant. I don't want to trigger anyone and am a little cautious.
    Izzy, if it weren't for you I'd still be in a horrible place. I can't thank you enough. You are a wonderful person. I know I've never seen you in real life, but I know you're being honest about who you are. Sometimes you just know ;)you are real. :)

  14. I'm from England I'm 24 and I've suffered with anorexia since I was 17 so a long 7 years with many hospital admissions and sections in between. However since finding your blog at the beginning of the year through google and very intense therapy sessions I'm now home and actually living :) I still read your blog everyday and it still inspires me with every new post. I wouldn't say I'm totally recovered but I'm very nearly there! Thanks izzy keep up the amazing work!

  15. I'm 18, from Sweden. I found your blog after i ha deaten an entire pint of ben & jerry's and was feeling guilty so i googled and found your post "Don't feel ad for eating" and it made me feel a lot better :). I have been reading your blog since january. I am not diagnosed with an ed since i have not seen a doctor or anything, but i struggle with exercise addiction and "too healthy" eating. I have however gotten a lot better and your blog is a great help! :) Thank you Izzy!!

  16. I'm from Florida, 21, I've had an ED for 9 years but have been recovering for a year with a few relapses. I don't recall how I found your blog but I'm glad I did and I've been reading it for about two years :) you're very inspiring and reading your blog reminds me why recovery is worth it.

  17. i am from Germany. I am in the mid of 30s and married. I suffer from AN and B.
    I love your blog. I follow it for some months now. Sometimes it triggers me and meanwhile i see some things critical, like you consuming all this proteinproducts and eating all "clean" or superhealthy. But i guess after this hard way you have come from it is okay to have some quirks remaining.

    I feel very sorry for you suffering from an other disease. I hope you have a long, lucky life! and i wish you to find a smart boy soon... ;-)

  18. Du vet säkert allt om mig :) !

  19. I'm 24 and I live in the US. I have been dealing with eating disordered habits and thoughts since I was probably 11 or 12 (restricting, chewing/spitting), but it didn't turn in to full blown anorexia until I moved far away from all my family and friends. I have been struggling to overcome anorexia and an exercise addiction for the past year and had a big health scare last Christmas when I got really sick and had to go to the hospital. I had a virus that a healthy person would have been able to get over in 24 hours, but I wasn't even able to keep down water for almost a week. I read your blog daily (part of my morning routine --- drink my coffee and check the internet) and I love it! I can't remember how I found it, but you have been such a huge inspiration to me and I love seeing how far your health has come. Keep up the amazing work, you touch so many lives Izzy and are making such a difference for girls struggling to overcome an ED mentality. <3

  20. I'm from the uk and in my mid-30s (now I feel especially old!) and have had anorexia for 20+ years. I've been reading for about a year now and find your posts very interesting. Sometimes I find them inspirational, other times less so but that is about me and not you. I wanted to comment earlier about whether your recent "feeling fat" days and increased anxiety etc over the possible move (which is totally understandable by the way) are either as a result of your losing weight or have contributed to your reduced weight. Just a may be when you're back to where you were, you might also feel better psychologically?

    I can't remember how I found your blog but aside from Ruby's, yours is the only one that has had a positive influence on my relationship with my ed. Keep writing for you and with what helps you. You will help others through doing just that and just being yourself, no matter whether you are "happy" or "down" or whatever. Honesty and being genuine are all people actually want x

  21. I'm Agnieszka (18 years old) and I'm from Poland. I've suffered with Anorexia since I was 14. Now I struggle with Bulimia and compulsive overeating. My the lowest bmi was 13,6. I have 19.9 bmi now and I hate my apperance.
    What's more I love running.

  22. I'm 14 years old from the Uk. I was hospitalised a couple of months ago but got out soon enough. I have only had one small loss but am gaining well. Before I found this blog I was scared of what I might become, I had binged on Ben and Jerry's 3 times and suffered severe pain.i used to be into athletics (running) but it lead to extreme weight loss: reading your blog has motivated me to gain weight and become athletic again because I enjoy it, I'm even going to try weight training.

  23. (14 yr old uk) continued... I've found so many similarities; I love nuts, chocolate covered nuts, yogurt, museli, oatmeal, baking, running, freedom of the outdoors and Ben and Jerry's! I love peanut butter but never tried peanut. Utter cup; I love phish food! I will continue ready you're blog as I treasures me on weight gain, bloating and helps me with restriction/anger... Thank you so much! (I'm going to Sweden! )

  24. Hi Izzy!

    I'm in my early 20s, from the US, and have had anorexia for about 10 years, but was officially diagnosed a year ago, flying under the radar for so long because I have never been a "healthy weight" in my life. I found your blog when I was on google, looking for pro-recovery sites, and have probably been following you for about 6 months or so. I'm trying to recover, as I am studying to go to medical school and want to have a normal life, have kids one day and be a positive role model for them, and obviously for my patients as well. Seeing you looking happy and healthy at least proves that it is possible to move forward.

    Outside of my eating disorder, I really like to write children's stories (I have a young cousin), go shopping, go to the beach, cook/bake elaborate things, watch movies and go out with my friends to museums or random events in the city. I don't work out, but like walking/dancing. I like hearing about the normal things that you do like that, they seem easier to do when recovered ;)

  25. I'm 19 and from the UK.
    I suffered from anorexia for around 2 years and over exercising tendencies for around a year.
    I have been in recovey since October last year.
    Recently the anorexic thoughts have been creeping back but I'm determined to not let them them defeat me as I DO NOT want to relapse!
    I've been reading through your blog daily since I discovered it 3 weeks ago and honestly you are so unbelievably inspirational!!
    I am even more determined to be fully recovered and live my life to the full (just like you!) :)
    Thank you Izzy :)

  26. I live in Finland and I'm 16 years old. I'm of portuguese , polish, german, finnnish and israeli descent. Hahaha the first random information about myself I could think of :D:D i have been struggling with anorexia for about 4 years now , and your blog really helps! :) I started reading it when my parents told me to find something online that could help me realize it's possible to get better and your blog has done that so a huge thank you!! <3 my biggest dream is to move to paris, my favourite book is the fault in our stars and the love of my life is ballet :)

  27. Hi Izzy!

    I'm 20 years old (turning 21 soon) and I'm from Norway. I have never gone to a doctor and been diagnosed because I've always been too afraid of what might come up. But I began to restrict when I was fifteen, and my last period was on my sixteenth birthday. Something (that I'm not about to talk about online) happened last spring that made me actually want to recover, and I've struggled all the way on my own... a few months ago, I found your blog while searching for blogs that might be helpful, and yours surely was! Now I've managed to gain quite a lot of weight (though my BMI is still slightly underweight), and I got my period back almost six months ago - and it's regular! Still struggling a bit with recurring ed thoughts, but they're far from what they used to be. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and being inspirational!

    1. Hello! I just wanted to congratulate you on how far you have come! You should be very proud of yourself <3 Good luck, hun :))

    2. This is so incredible! I love hearing how far people have come. I like to think that if you can handle fighting an eating disorder, then you can handle anything life throws your way. Good luck and even though I don't know you, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU <3

  28. Im Ella,from Slovakia,Im almost 18 years old. And I`m recovered [I hope so] from anorexia nervousa,and I read your blog since I started my recovery which is more than year,and I dont really remember how I found out about your blog,but I know I love you,cause you helped me,even more than my friends did,Im your big fan....and I would like to have some nice abs.and toned body... [maybe like yours :D] But I dont know how to build muscles on my belly..maybe I eat wrong or too much or workot too little or I dont know,I eat healthy,Im vegan,I eat 6x a day.workout 6-7x a week(I workout with dummbels.I do cardio and hiit,and time to time I go for run or do yoga) but I cant see any results which make me really sad...And I have my own blog where I write down my feeling here it is if you would want to read something I would be happy...
    And P.S. Sorry for my bad english

  29. Hey! I`m a reader from Finland, Helsinki. I`m 24 years old and I guess ended up reading your blog, `cause I have anorexia diagnosis "behind me". By that I mean that I`m recovered from ED but still have some psyghological things to handle and work out :) I guess I`ve read your blog about 6 months or smth, can`t really remember which way I found the blog :D

  30. Hi,
    Im 23, from slovakia... I had an all kind of ed for a few years (from my 12th birthday).. now Im fully recovered, but I read your blog daily and I can say, your posts are very motivating.
    Thank you much!

  31. I'm "Ilovetheway"
    I'm Swiss:) I am 15 years old and I had an ED :/ But I was in therapy and I'm happy with me and my life right now:) I dont know how I found your blog but it must be 2 or 3 months ago:)
    Sorry for my bad english :/ :D

  32. Hello everyone! So I guess I should start with my name? I'm Teagan and I'm 16 (17 in less than a month) and I'm from South Africa. I've had disordered eating for about 5 years. However, exactly a year ago, I developed anorexia. I began reading this blog earlier this year, just before I went into a clinic. I found your blog when I kept typing in a bunch of ED related questions into Google. I've been declared healthy for only a month now, but I check for posts about 5 times a day just to keep me in the right headspace :D

  33. Hey Izzy!
    I am twenty one and I live in England. I have suffered with eating problems since I was nineteen and I went to my first university. It was the worst experience of my life, I was so lonely and isolated. I came a size 14 and left a size 6. I suffered so much and I continue to struggle on, my parents are the most supportive people in the entire world I feel so guilty that they cannot have a normal daughter. I want to gain weight but I am also terrified to see the scales increase. I want to email you so I can properly say what I need to. I feel like you are such a friend and support. I check your posts everyday and they offer such a guidance to me and my family. I have gotten the eating down, kind of I still get scared to eat things. I feel people are trying to make me eat unhealthy food, I horde food that I want to eat but then I am too afraid to eat and I have other strange food behaviours I don't know how to battle.

    I would love to be your friend! Thankyou,

  34. I'm Brazilian, 19 and I've struggled with an eating disorder for just about half an year and started recovery on my own for about 2,5 monthes now. its quite hard not to have help but its a too delicate subject in my house. i just started reading your blog a few weeks ago and i just love it, its really helpful! so thank you. <3

  35. I'm from Germany and I'm 18 years old and have suffered from an ED for about 5 years now, but there were worse and better phases in between... I am now hopefully in my last stage of recovery and your blog has been so inspirational to me for quite a while now, I guess I first found it like 3 years ago?! But then there were times when I didn't care about the 'recovery stuff' and I didn't really read it anymore, but when I started recovery again your blog was a great Motivation and I think it's wonderful how much so many People can learn from you, even if they don't have an ED and I love how positive you are. :) Thank you so much for everything you have shared so far, Izzy! :)

  36. I'm from Argentina Tierra del Fuego, Ushuaia. I'm 16. I suffer from anorexia for two years, and I still can't say I'm recovered, but I'm home and not in a hospital. Today, exactly one year ago I was hospitalized weighing 30 kilos, looking for help everywhere on how was the recovery. I found your blog and I started to send you emails and asking you so many things and you always answered (even some silly things, thank you very much) with your experiences that helped me. After five months they let me go home, but now every day first thing I do when I get up is to open your blog, is something that makes me happy.
    Also a few months ago I suffered bulimia, but thanks to your posts I could stop that. So THANK YOU IZZY!

  37. Hi Izzy!

    Im Hannah and I just turned 18. I live in Ohio...the U.S. :p Lets see... I started changing my eating habits in august of last year but it was kind of difficult as I was doing sports. A lot of the girls were really fit and skinny so I guess that kind of triggered everything ( for a year or two before that I tried to exercise to lose weight but It really work the way I wanted it to...I got muscley) Then after, to compensate for not running anymore I started restricting. Then sometime around April I realized that I had taken my anorexia to far and decided to try and get better. Ironically the day after I decided that, my counselor called me into her office and called my dad. Around that time I searched something like how to eat without guilt and found your website!! Its been really helpful and has inspired me to start a journal. It really helps so to anyone who gets anxiety you should try it! At first you'll feel a little weird writing to yourself but just go with it!
    Although Im not really close to being healthy( I still wont eat certain foods and attempt to restrict...but mentally I know I cant so I just eat enough to stay at my current weight which is still around bmi 16-17) your website still has helped me incredibly. I still have my ups and downs, more down than up but Im working through it. Thank you for everything you do :)
    Oh and I really appreciate your bloating video, thinking of it really lowers my anxiety when Im bloated:p

  38. Hello Izzy ^_^
    I am a 27 female from New York City and has been battling with restrictive anorexia since 2010. The main cause of my ED may be my family relationship :(
    Have been reading your blog for around 9 months but cannot recall how I found your blog :P
    You are absolutely a gem that always reminds me there always is hope!

  39. I'm from Australia, am 24 years old and have been reading your blog for about three months. I found it by searching "pro recovery blogs" on Google. I have been diagnosed with EDNOS and you have been so important to my recovery, you're like my recovery idol. Now I am BMI 20 and it's the healthiest I have been in years, you helped take away my fear of eating. Thank you Izzy :)

  40. I'm a 16 year old girl from New Zealand. I have anorexia/anorexia athletica. I found your blog when I was bored in hospital haha :~)

  41. Hiii Izzy :-)) I'm cat i'm 15 and i'm from Australia! I suffer with anorexia athletica and I have been reading your blog for just over a year now I was looking for.. pro ana blogs weird turn of events right? also a VERY good turn of events hence me being in recovery for a while now thank you Izzy big HUGE hugs from australia xx

  42. I'm a girl who's turning 20 this year and i'm from Sweden.
    I found your blog about 1,5 months ago when I was googling on questbars and found a picture that you'd taken. And then I went on reading some of your posts and really liked them so I "saved" your blog.

    I developed a bad relationship with food when I was 12 years old, when my dad got sick in a Brain Tumour. I didn't notice the correlation between my fathers sickness and my dieting until just recently.
    From age 12-16 I was only dealing with some anxiety and had some fearfoods (but I ate them anyway) trying to loose weight but I didn't as I wasn't working out and only cut out candy and such. But when I was 16 I became somewhat depressed and gained about 6 kg and that I saw as a "wakeup call" and I totally decided to loose weight. About that time I started working out regularly and were experimenting allot with my diet. I mostly starved myself for 1 year and after that I decided to start eating but I compensated with workouts and that was when I developed Ortorexia. So from 17-20 (now) I cut out so much food that I barely could eat anything anymore and I was/am afraid of everything that isn't totally "clean". I've gone from high normal weight to low normal weight (1 kg from underweight) and lost my period since more than a year back.

    But around the time I found your blog I had decided to turn myself around and become healthy and reading your blog everyday has REALLY been a comfort in my struggle and I feel (just in these last 2 months) that I never have been so free in my eating (since i first got my Ortorexia).

    So thank you :)

  43. Hi Izzy ;)

    I'm 17 years old and have been suffering from an eating disorder for about 3 years now. I've been reading your blog for about a year now and it has helped me SO much - both in terms of challenging my ED and also giving me hope that there is a life beyond the ED out there! What I love is that when I sent you an email when I was at my lowest point (a couple of months ago), you replied and gave me such hope but also gave me some tough love (which was much needed!) I am now doing so much better and have managed to avoid spending my summer holidays in hospital - and that is a great deal down to you so THANK YOU!


  44. I am 25, living in South Africa and have been following your blog since the end of last year and is now completely addicted, checking in every 3-4 hours a day. (It's worse than Facebook :)) Anyway, I have been struggling with eating disorders on and off since the age of 17 and your blog really helps me just to love myself each day and also telling that to myself.
    Standing 1.7 meters tall I have reached my lowest weight of 48kg where I was being threatened to be hospitalised should I not get better. This has been a turning point in my life but I still need to fight the demons in my head every day. I am fully recovered now and thanks to you, I keep on going.
    (To think a youngster helps me with my self-image) Truly amazing and inspiring!!

  45. Hi, I am 16 and from Northern Ireland. I read your blog because my 18 year old sister has anorexia and I found it because I was googling different things to see if I could find any info on what thoughts she would be feeling to know how best to help her. I guess I've been following your blog for about a year now because I love your positive attitude and your posts always make me smile and even though I'm not trying to recover from an ED, your posts help me understand my sisters anorexia better :) keep up the good work!

  46. Hi, I'm from Malaysia and almost 22 years old. As far as I can remember, I found ur blog on the first day when I purged. I had a lot of thought of not to take any food before that. As I purged, I was afraid of the consequences of doing it. So I searched in the internet to find the effect of purged and I found ur blog. You ve provided many information of anorexia and bulimia and I thank you for that. and what make me happy the most is when each time you reply my messages and answered them in details! Thank you! :)

  47. I'm 17 from the UK, I have suffered from EDNOS since the age of 13/14 , however I am now recovered. (Healthy as of January 2nd this year ) . I found your blog around that time and I think it really was the catalyst for change in my life , thank you so much for the effort you put into your blog , you really are an inspiration, you've truly changed my life :)

  48. Izzy!
    Im 24 years and I live in Croatia ( Europe). Im recovered anorexic and this way I would like to thank you because during this 2 years of recovery you were such a big inspiration! Thank you once again for changing my life to better! If I havent find you (and few other ed recovered blogs) I would never confess myself that I had a problem! Enjoy! :)

  49. I am from India but I live in Italy, and i am 18 :) When I found out your blog I was considering relapsing but you kind of gave me strenght, and i am really gratefull for that, so thank you Izzy!! ♥

  50. I’m from Yorkshire, UK.

    I’m 21.

    Erm…….. I consider myself to have been anorexic from 9-16/17. I didn’t start recovering till I was 16/17 and I guess I still am I’m not yet goal weight but I don’t class myself as anorexic anymore.

    I've been reading your blog for around a year I think ?

    I just googled anorexia blog …. I was looking for something to make me feel less of a “weirdo” that I wasn’t alone in my thoughts and fears e.t.c.

    Random Information: …… serious : I do a chemistry degree / am on placement at the moment
    Less serious : I like Dr who and Sherlock .

    Constructive criticism ……. I actually can’t think of any I find your blog very helpful. Erm… maybe just be careful with the advertising / sponsor thing. I like the fact that I know what you blog is what you truly feel not a front or just plugging something. To be fair though so far I think you have given your opinion on products and I do understand about needing the sponsorship.