Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Monday, July 7, 2014

Eating in recovery

Got this from Tumblr:

I don't get the whole "Eat when you are hungry, never restrict, and you will maintain your set point" thing. Eat when I'm hungry? How much? I don't even know how a normal person should be eating. It could be too much or too little. I don't know what a proper serving is like. I never ever feel full, so I can't rely on my hunger/fullness cues. I feel like I'm destined to be an overeater because I was an overeater pre-ED.

letsrecover answered:
Overeater pre-ED? Maybe not. Check out THIS

The feeling you describe now, is perfectly normal among those with eating disorders. I thought the same. The thing is; in recovery, you are not supposed to eat normal. If you feel like eating, eating and eating, and never get full, do so. It is calledextreme hunger and will pass. You can rely on those cues! Your hunger cues are not really messed up, they are perfectly tuned in so you can survive. Never feeling full means you need a lot of food. How do you think people have survived starvation for decades? Lets go back in time, to the.. Stone age!;

Mr. Stoneage man (let’s call him that) is out hunting, but he gets lost. He spends a month out in the woods surviving on berries, water from the lake and some fish. Luckily, he eventually finds his way home. He is starved out and very ill. Now what do you think he’ll do;

A: Eat the same amount as he did before he got lost - the amounts he needed to maintain his weight, and to do day-to-day stuff as hunting and.. living. 
B: Get extra hungry and eat way more than before he got lost, so he gains weight, repair the inner damage (such as muscle waste for example).

If he did A, he would have died or at least remained starved and sick. If he did B, which he obviously did, his body would get back to normal. He would consume the calories he had ‘lost’. Extreme hunger (aka not feeling full after a period of undereating) is an old, natural surviving mechanism. The same happens to animals - have you ever seen a starved out dog eating? Does the dog just keep on eating and become super obese, or does the hunger regulate itself so the weight gain stops at the dogs set point weight? Go to a pet shelter or a vet and ask. 

Physically, this is just like anorexia in humans. The bones, the starvation. What do you think when you see an emeciated, sick dog? Why are you doing the same to yourself?

If you dont feel hunger, make or get a meal plan of 2500-3000+ calories. Check out how many calories you need here, and why here. Example of a basic meal plan here. Further explanation of why you need those calories here and here. Short summary; you have to get those 2500-3000+ calories inside you somehow, wether it is a 3000 calorie meal plan or extreme hunger with 8000 calories daily. Just eat it!

- Amalie


  1. I always feel hungry, but I think a lot of it is 'mental hunger'. But I don't think I can actually give into that hunger, otherwise I will feel greedy. Like I always feel hungry after dinner for some reason, but I have to wait until it's time to have a snack to actually have anything. And like if I feel hungry between 1 and 4pm (lunch, then snack time), I don't allow myself anything. I think my biggest fear is binging (which has never happened but it's still a fear) or overeating so I structure my meals.

    1. i do the same thing sometimes, but i make myself eat snacks so i don't end up over-eating at night!!