Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Too many thoughts

My head is filled with so many thoughts at the moment... i just want to escape my own mind.
   Also im having loads of negative thoughts about my body..... :/ Im only human, im no superwoman who can just get rid of all negative thoughts.
  Feeling pretty awful in my own body at the moment... feelings of jsut wanting to escape my own body, my own mind... switch bodies with someone else for a while.

I know that these feelings have to stem from something... but i dont know what it is. But i hope they pass soon. I hate when i feel like this...

Otherwise thoughts over summer, i have no plans for summer but i dont want to just waste my summer... so trying to think of things to do.

Tomorrow is my last day of school and i cant explain how relieved i am. I just want my summer break to officially begin.

And i know i have gotten many emails and comments at the moment, but i am unfortunatly not feeling so motivated to write at the moment. I need to sort out some things in my head first :/

(picture from before)

26 comments:

  1. Hang in there. Hope this will pass quickly. Try and look back on your color-run and how great that felt! I am also a runner and i ofte feel really down after a good race.. like an anti climax or something..

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    1. Thank you :) haha, it might be a little of that- that i had such a great time and now just dont know what to do!

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  2. I hope your okay - I know that even the strongest and the most selfless people need support sometimes, my tutor at my old hospital taught me that. If you need to talk, you know how to reach me, I know it can be helpful to offload sometimes. <3 <3

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  3. sorry your feeling like this, we all love you! btw if your stuck for things to write about ever, you could do one big post reviewing all the questbars you've tried/quest crave??? i'd love to hear your opinion, im thinking about ordering a box of 12 but can't decide!

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    1. Im slowly working my way through the reviews :) haha

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  4. Sorry to hear, Izzy! Just like you wrote yesterday about life after an eating disorder, there are ups and downs, but life is all about enjoying the good moments and also experiencing the bad emotions. Go with the flow without letting the bad thoughts bother you for too long, for the sake of the good times that are soon to come :) <3

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  5. Just know you will be free for the summer, and enjoy the present. You will be ok i promise. And your.are.beautiful, healthy, and toned. But most of all an inspiration to all of us. You will be back to feeling amazingsoon enough! Lots of love!

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  6. hey girl, I'm sorry that you are having a hard time right now. But always remember, this is just the legacy of the ED - the devil - its attempt to suck you back into the black hole. Fight back the voice inside your head, like you've always done! You are the FIGHTER!
    Lots of love,
    J

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    1. (not J as in recoveryschmecovery)

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    2. Thank you :) It wasnt an ED voice though ;) It was just normal teenager bad body image thoughts... i had no intentions of starving myself, and no thoughts of that either ;)

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  7. I felt the same way today! Then i went for a run, and felt way better!! Take care of YOU. do what makes YOU feel better, and listen to YOUR heart, not Ana's voice! Ana is only a voice, not a real thing!!! Hang in there!! We love you!!

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    1. Thank you :) However it wasnt an ED voice... all those thoughts are gone. It was just negative thoughts and thinking ;)

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  8. We love you, Izzy, and remember. You are such an inspiration to us all, you have touched (and most certainly saved) so many lives. We are here for you as you are for us. Take care, my friend. <3

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  9. Sorry you're feeling so crummy. Maybe a little bit of an emotional rebound from the high of the colour run? Be good to yourself. You are strong and it WILL pass.

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    1. It might be that... But im feeling a little better today :)

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  10. Hey girl... You are beautiful and strong both physically and mentally. You really inspire me and many others... Soooo much more than you will ever know. Love your body because it is the most amazing thing you will ever own. Hang in there. Is it a rainy day? Perhaps it is SAD. That certainly has brought my mood down today... :P

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    1. I actually think i do have SAD, but it wasnt a rainy day... it was just lots of negative thinking... no idea where tehy came from.

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  11. You saved my life. You should never dislike yourself. EVER. You are one of the most important people in my life right now :)

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  12. Izzy, it's fine to feel like this. you can't always be the strong one. maybe this feelings are useful for anything you don't know at the moment. just don't forget to remember the beautiful moments in life. the color run, the morning walks, time with your family.
    i remember your idea of writing a book. may that be a summer plan?
    Send you a big hug!

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  13. I'm sorry to hear, you don't feel very well right now :( But I guess that's how life sometimes goes and it's the reason why whe are able to apprecheate the great nd happy moments in life. So keep your head up and try to cheer you up with something you like?! (Even though it might be just soemthing like chocolate ;) )
    I as well have'nt planed anything for summer yet and I feel kinda uncomfortable with that. I love summer so much and traveling is one of my favorite things I do. But my friends are all busy (making holidays with their boyfriends, doing internships...) and my parents already have plans, so I would have to travel alone. It wouldnt be a problem for me, but I'd rather have a friend by my side, which is mostly more fun. If you can't find anything for the summer, feel free to visit me in germany! ;)
    I hope you feel better soon. Best wishes! Lenchen_b from instagram ;)

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