Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Thursday, June 26, 2014

The only reason to look back is to see how far you have come

** TRIGGER WARNING FOR PICTURES BELOW! **

I don't often look back into the past. ... i used to do that alot more often before. When i had only just recovered i used to do alot of comparison. .. like Wow I'm eating chocolatejust a year ago I couldn't do that. Or think like, only 6 months ago I got anxiety after eating etc (thoughts from 2012 when i was declared healthy).
   I no longer have that type of thinking or comparison. I dont think back to times when I was sick.... I dont see the point. I'm me now. I'm different to who I was before I developed an eating disorder.  And I'm different from the person i was when I was sick. You keep changing,  growing and developing. I live my life now and don't look to the past.
However, today I am looking into the past to see how far I've actually come.... Instead of writing it out.  I'm going to post pictures,  and i think these pictures speak for themselves of how far I've come!!


**TRIGGER WARNING FOR PICTURES! !!***

I know the photos can be triggering - but they are only meant as a comparison... to see how far ive come, this post is alot for my sake as well.  If you are triggered by skinny pictures, please skip this post!! For your OWN sake!









^^Kids psychiatric hospital - one of the worst places ive been.

And my half recovery stage... where you can see how little my portions actually were
^^ we didnt have a scale but thats how i knew i had lost weight and i secretly was very happy aboutn it.




^^scared to eat the egg yolk





 And me NOW!!!




















14 comments:

  1. Good For you!! We love you so much!!

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  2. you've done amazing izzy!!!
    you underwent a tough journey and fought to the end. I think your absolutely incredible for that - well done!!
    your such a lovely person, izzy!!:)

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  3. I really appreciate the fact you posted your "skinny" pictures- a lot of the time people will flat out refuse to post their skinny/lowest weight pictures for whatever reason. I just feel like it's hard to get a good picture of what someone's illness is like if all they do is talk about it. It's so helpful for the perspective. Glad to see you've come so far. :)

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    1. I understand why people dont want to post their skinny pictures, im pretty much the same way (might not seem like it) but i feel like id ont want people to compare themselves to me, and i dont want to trigger people. I mean these pictures arent even from my lowest weight, i dont have pictures from then. But i dont think i would want to have pictures from that time anyway.
      It is a good reminder, a good sort of perspective of how far ive come... but at the same time, its such a personal thing to share pictures from when you are underweight, and so severly sick. You can often get alot of hate and critique for it.

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  4. You're such an inspiration, wow! <3

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  5. It makes me so happy to see all the pictures. to see how far you have come and how hapy you look now. the pictures from when you are very skinny, they dont look like you. or you can see its you, but like a different you? not the happy you now?
    i think its good to look to the past see how far you have come. and you inspire me so much. and so many others. thank you for all you do.

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    1. Thank you :) I alawys think the same thing... its like its me, but not really? i look so different! Its so strange.

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  6. Wow Izzy! It's so great to see all the progress you made in steps and what an amazing recovery you have had. It actually makes it easier to see how far you've come by seeing the earlier photos as well, and I think you should feel nothing but immensely proud. Keep blogging, we'll still be reading :-)

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  7. It's so amazing how far you've come! Such a warrior! :) A comment about the small portions they gave you - when I first started looking for positive recovery blogs, I was shocked by the very small portions these girls in recovery were eating! It was very triggering for me at the time. Anyway, you look absolutely wonderful now and the red lipstick looks great on you!!
    Courtney

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    1. Thank you :) with the small portions, i was supposed to be eating ALOT more. That was during my relapse when i stopped following my meal plan, cut carbs from my diet and ate vbery little... so was supposed to be eating more as i was supposed to be gaining weight!

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