Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Answers part 4

What are you favourite movies or TV shows?
My favourite films: Pirates of the Carribean, Wildchild, The Holiday, Harry Potter films, Divergent has become one of my favourites, Little miss sunshine, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind & pretty mcuh all Johnny Depp films!!!

Series:  Pretty Little Liars, Awkward, Vampire Diaries, Suits, The Mindy Project, Orange is the New Black, Depserate Housewives, Friends and Simpsons :)

How long you train in the day? 

 Depends... but say if i go for a walk in the morning and strength in the afternoon it would be like 2 hours total... but if i just do strengt and some warm up it can be anything from 45-90 minutes :)

How did you manage to get it as a great body? 

1) Do you ever feel embarrassed because you are older than your classmates? how you managed that?

Not really... i mean im 1-2 years older than them... and at timnes i do feel alot more maturer than them. Like they can laugh and joke about silly things, whilst i feel i dont find those type of silly things funny... though it could be because i have been through so much, i dont laugh as easily as others i guess? I dont know.

2) how is your relationship with your step family?
Next to non existent... :(

3)Do you feel sad because you are far away from your dad?
Yes i do, i miss him alot. And its hard that we dont see each other so often, but we try to communicate through message and skype anyway :)

4) Do you believe in God?
Not really... i dont really want to bring religion into my blog or write about it as everyone has such different beliefs. And i respect that, everyone can and should be allowed to believe whatever they want :)

What's your favorite color?

I dont really have one.. maybe baby blue or hot pink ;)

Where do you buy your clothes?
H&M or Indiska... i dont do alot of clothes shopping, hahah! I mainly buy sports clothes which come from different Sports Shops in Stockholm!

How did you get people to follow your blog?
Im not so sure... i never made them follow, haha!! XD I guess they - YOU? - like what you read and decided to follow. I never started my blog with the intention of having many followers, it was more my online diary. But as i recovered and started helping people i guess people became inspired or liked what i wrote.
    I never really advertised my blog either.. i.e i dont write much on other peoples blogs, though i guess i should? I just amnt one of those people who does everything to get followers? I mean on Instagram, Tumblr, FB etc some people do everything and constantly advertise and do shoutouts to get followers...
 I think the most important thing is to like what you do... spend time on your blog, write for YOUR sake. And see what happens :)

What's one thing you couldn't live without?
Oxygen? Food?....
  I dont really know..... i love food and exercise, but of course i would be pretty sad without my family, friends or if i didnt have a house or money!!

i have a couple questions to add if you're still answering! I was wondering if you dye your hair and also if you use makeup, what brands/products do you use? You are beautiful (:. Also, do you have any piercings?

   Thank you so much :) Yeah i dye my hair... im naturally blonde but ive dyed my hair since i was 12 so if i let my hair grow and let the hair colour out then i think i will have a sort of sandy blonde, though naturally i am very light blonde. So to get that hair colour i need to bleach my hair which = very dry, horrible hair :(
   I use very little make up, just some Mascara (i have lots of different brans, some cheap H&M mascara, a Givenchy one and a Dolce & Gabana one :) haha) and then just a little concealer... so no foundation or anything :)
  My ears are pierced, but i havent had earrings since i was maybe 13? :)

If you could change one thing about your past (can be anything from not being born with cf to having baked a tiramisu cake than strawberry cake yesterday) which is mutually exclusive to all other events in your life (meaning it would not change anything else in your life that is not related to it) what would it be?? I hope you understand the question haha
This is soo hard to answer... I feel like there is alot in my life i would change.. but at the same time, everything that has happend has made me the person i am. Because i dont think i would be as happy or as healthy as i am today if i hadnt gone through everything i have gone through.
  If we hadnt moved to Sweden, ifi  hadnt gotten an eating disorder or depression, if i didnt have CF.

But i think what i would want to change is me having CF, that would of course change my whole life. I wouldnt be the person i am today... i dont even think i would live in Sweden. But at the same time, having CF is not something i would... and i would trade my life right now to get rid of it... to be able to breathe properly. To not take so much medication everyday and feel restricted in certain areas of life...
   But maybe this is very morbid thinking, and i like who i am today. I like how i live my life, how i amnt letting my CF stop me from running, from exercising and going to school. Studying and getting good grades, so i mean it doesnt have to restrict me...

Right now i cant really think of anything i would change... Or actually i can, i would change my gym card (i recently renewed my gym card to the same gym for a 3rd year in a row) and i love my gym, its my second home. But recently ive found a new gym 2 minutes from my home which i have tested and i fell in love with that gym... haha, it was so modern and fancy. But because we've paid for a whole year at my gym i cant really change now... and i still love my gym, but well... i still have thoughts about the other gym :)
   Hahahah, a complicated love triangle :) Sounds like im cheating on my old gym... but i guess in some ways i am, having bad thoughts about this newer and more modern gym!! XD

and also do you think the boys in your class think you are 'hot' because you are so trained? Is there anyone who has a crush on you?;)

 Hahaha, What a question XD Nope, i dont think so... i think guys are more intimidated of me? haha.. this is actually something i can feel insecure about. I mean, what if guys look at me and feel intimidated and scared because i do exercise and workout... but then again, i want to be together with someone who also works out, so hes not going to be intimidated, he's just going to push me to work harder and motivate me more :)
^^1,5 years difference. With focus on strength training for only 6 months, before that it was mainly cardio!

  And if i think anyone likes me in the school... i hope so, but i doubt it. I would prefer if i guy came up and asked me to go for coffee because i am the worst at picking up clue. He could be staring at me, or trying to flirt and i would still think that he is trying to flirt with one of my friends or is staring at me because i have something on my face... haha
   I need more solid cues to go on :)

I think this is all of the questions ive got :) If not, just let me know!


  1. How many days per week do you work out?
    Thanks! xoxo

  2. why is your relationship with your step family 'non-existent'? I thought you had quite good relationship with your e.g. step dad (aeroboxing)? J